Why did you call the cops on him?

You need to try to sit down and communicate with him about how you are doing and that sometimes the depression and other conditions make you snap. That is a big part of any relationship is to talk talk talk and never stop. You to get the feelings out. Hope things get better for you. Hugs.

Are the in laws still in town?

Domestic violence against you or him?

I'm confused.. You broke the tv and called the cops? Or you broke the tv and he called the cops?

If you are I your apartment where is he?

I think the first thing you should do is stop drinking so you can try to think somewhat clearly. No good decisions have ever been made with a bottle of booze in your hand.

"they recorded this as a domestic violence incident. and all that crap."

You know, my sister had a similar attitude toward "all that crap" until the day she had to grab her husbands balls and rip them out while he was ontop of her choking her.
"all that crap" didnt stop until he had the nerve to put his hands on my mother and my sister broke a flashlight across his face. So she gets arrested, her name is in the newspaper and she winds up losing her job as a teacher.
Yep, sure sounds like CRAP to me.

I dont know if its just me, but the non-chalant attitude in your post is whats the most frightening. You say things like "I act very crazy at times" and "im really not me when i get upset and i lose control over myself." as though acknowledging the issues makes them okay, or acceptable. As though they are an excuse.

The state of your marriage has to take a backseat and your priority needs to be YOUR mental health, because whether your marriage makes it or not, you will still have yourself to deal with.
Please PLEASE take steps toward getting these issues addressed and corrected before you say or DO something you will never EVER be able to take back.
I am genuinely frightened for you.

I agree with shine. Things can get so much worse and the only way to possibly prevent it is to help yourself first. You are aware that you "lose control" so take control back. Get help. I think the fact that your husband hasn't called is probably due to him trying to sort through his own issues in terms of the incident. Make sure your calm, and sober when you finally talk. Best of luck to you.

I agree with Shine. Your mental health is what's the root causing issue to all your problems. Please seek help and think about repairing your marriage second. You can't ask someone you love to stay with you unless you're willing to work on your issues. It's not fair to them and it's not fair to you. Seek help, then when you've received help will you be in the right place in your life to ask for forgiveness and offer your husband a better chance for a better marriage. Good luck to you casey.