I have finally scheduled my next appt with my attorney to finally get the proverbial ball rolling. I realize this doesn't sound like a big deal, but for anybody who knows me and how I have gone back and forth over this , they know it is progress.
i am excited to see a glimmer at the end of my tunnel, but at the same time concerned since he may throw a wrench in things, plus I do realize there is alot to do now....sorting through things....looking for a place......finding another vehicle.....
But for now, I am just gonna focus on the fact that I have finally taken another step.
PS. I am no spring chicken and have wasted so much time already....I DO NOT plan on taking this long between steps since I am finally started. I do want to be happy, appreciated and loved before i die.
I feel like my triggers are affecting everything in my life. Spots on the carpet reminds me of the pool of blood on the floor. Black button up shirts remind me of how desperate I was to take mine off becaue I couldn't breathe and help wasn't getting there fast enough. When do the triggers stop seeping into my life and stealing pieces of me? I am undergoing EMDR, and my therapist is a blessing....