Why did you break up?

I was having doubts, at the time they seemed significant. Looking back they were just normal feelings and I should've just let them pass.

"How do I go on without him?"

Get out of the bed, get off the couch, and enjoy the great outdoors. Exercise. Take long walks. It'll get you in physical and emotional shape and it'll give you long periods to think. Works for me.

wanting someone back because you cant get out of bed without them might be one of the worst reasons to be in a relationship with someone

know what i mean?

True, justine.

Since when do people get into relationships for GOOD reasons? They usually get into relationships because there's some deficiency that they perceive as lacking in themselves, that they think a relationship with another will solve.

The truth is, gotta have a good relationship with YOURSELF, and a good relationship with nature, some hobby, some work, some creative process, outside of yourself, before you can have a good relationship with ANOTHER.

Relationships are messy. They bring good things, like love, comfort and empathy, and they also bring a second set of additional issues and complications in addition to your own.

To be or not to be in a relationship is a matter of choice, of priority, of deciding "is this really good for me at this time"? If the answer is "no", don't be in a relationship. At the end of the day, you're staring at yourself.

I am so sorry you are feeling this way.

You sound very depressed.

May I suggest that you go talk to someone? a therapist?
to help you sort things out?

A partner, a relationship should add to your happiness and your life, not be your happiness and life. If you've fallen into that deep of a depression that you're merely existing but not living, as OTM suggested, talking to a professional might help you sort things out.

I'm not depressed. I do have clinical depression but I haven't had an episode in 4 years. I manage it with meds, exercise, and therapy. I'm doing a little better now. I've gotten myself to go to the gym everyday and clean my apt. I'm still hurting the same though. I feel I made a HUGE mistake by ending things with my ex.

I'm confused.
You say you dont want to go on without this man, cant possibly imagine life without him, that youre so miserable you cant get out of bed...
But then you say youre not depressed and you go to the gym?
Girlfriend, thats the epitome of being depressed.
If you werent depressed, youd be out of bed, off the couch, and out doing things that you enjoy.