Don't take anymore of it! Someone who loves you would NOT call you names, disrespect you and degrade you. He's a verbal and emotional abuser, you have nothing to lose by dumping him!

i do i lose him for good because he will end his life

If you can try and think of it this way, Would you treat someone you cared about the way your b/f is treating you? If the answer is no then you should not allow yourself to be treated this way. I know it isn't easy but perhaps you should consider letting him know that either he respects you or he can go find a real knob head to date. Don't allow yourself to continue putting up with his behavior if it makes you unhappy because nobody deserves that. Hang out with those who make you feel good about yourself and toss him to the curve if he can't treat you right.

So he's also manipulative and controlling, another abusive trait! If he has emotional problems that makes him suicidal, makes him an abuser and a manipulator, it's his responsibility to get professional help for his issues. If he chooses not to and he takes his own life, that was HIS choice! You are not responsible for his life, he is.

You also have a choices, stay in an abusive relationship and accept that this is the life YOU chose to live or leave it and find something better for yourself.

You've only been with him for 4 short months, imagine what a life time will be like being with him!

A "nob head": That's a new one!

Agree with everyone else, if he loves you, he will not treat you this way. If he wants to end his own life, that's his problem.

Meanwhile, you love yourself enough to respect yourself enough to not stand for this nonsense! Either fight for yourself, or walk out the door. It really is that simple.

I hate manipulative people like this. LIke leather stated, he is manipulating and abusing you. Don't put up with his crap. Dump him, it is NOT worth it to stay with someone that is abusive. It damages you and if you had children with this man (heaven forbid), he would abuse them too. RUN from this relationship. It is NOT healthy.

I agree with the others, this is classic manipulation. And making any attempt at suicide and blaming you is not something a person does to people they love. Get out while you can, this is not a healthy relationship.