So yea, this is going to probably should strange, but I have no idea what to do. So last week, I wrote a big long out post about how I was conflicted about this girl. She is far away, and it is a long distance thing, and while I have very strong feelings for her, she doesn't seem to devote as much time to me as I do her, and I guess for me that is a bother. But, next month, she is due to move back closer to me, and I should be capable of actually visiting her, and until last night, I was really looking forward to it. She tells me she is very talented at her job, and from the sounds of it, wants for nothing. She likes me because I'm cute, disabled, and can devote so much time to her. Seeing as I can't work, that is one of the major perks of me I guess.

But now, as of last night, 2 more women have popped into my picture. One I met here actually, and she seems really wonderful, and we have had some really great conversations and have clicked. I like her, she likes me, but distance again is going to kill me. She is across the country from me, so lots of travel, which I'm ok doing if it develops into something more then liking each other. She also likes me for my personality, how much I can devote time wise, and finds me cute too. I honestly don't see the cute part in me, but hey, who am I to argue.

But tonight, my first love, a girl prior to my ex, found me on FB and got a hold of me, and apparently we both still harbor a lot of feelings for each other. We were kids, teenagers really when we met and broke up, but the year or so we were together it was amazing. We both had a lot of issues outside of us, parents, and she spared me the pain she was going through, which hurt like hell, but clearly I survived. She is disabled now with a lot of medical issues, but she is like 8 miles away from me. In talking with her tonight, my heart has skipped a beat quite a few times, and honestly, I'm so conflicted. She also finds me cute, and seems to really remember our past together and how much I cared for her. The fact that my ex is out of the picture, and she sees what my ex did to me also has sparked some interest.

Either way I go about this, 2 of these 3 are going to be hurt by me. I'm a one woman kind of guy, believes in a single relationship, and is honestly struggling to sort this all out. I've never in my life had more then 1 girl, and honestly, consider my ex-wife my first real girlfriend due to the maturity increase. I don't know why, but I'm desirable, and this is a big shock to me. Normally, everyone looks at me, and goes, meh, and moves on. So to have options, let alone 3 of them, to all really wonderful women is making this chaotic for me.

So if you were in my place, what would you do? How would you handle this, and how would you let down the 2 gently once you make the final decision on who to choose? Pro's and cons of this are hard for me, as logic really can't dictate my heart. I don't know what to do, and I'm scared to hurt them. I'm such a nice guy, and I've never faced this before. So if you can, please help me sort this chaos out.