I know that God loves me. And I believe that God blesses me daily. I was raised Christian and taught that same sex relationships are wrong. I was in a 4 year relationship with my girlfriend and I had a hard time letting go of the feeling that I was doing something wrong. I went to God and I said God I know you know everything about me and you know that I want to be in right standing with you. I don't understand how being in a same sex relationship is wrong I am not trying to be something that I am not. I understand that you didn't make it possible for 2 people of the same sex to reproduce. I also know that there is more to a intimate relationship than the ability to reproduce. God I don't love the person I am with because of their gender. I love them for all or the things that make them who they are their personality, sense of style, sense of humor, intelligence, romance, loyalty and honesty. I love their physical appearance to but i love the way they make me feel and the way they treat me. I love them because I can see you in them. You oh God are the lover of my soul but I want someone that is not a spirit that I can have an intimate relationship with. Someone that I can have sex with. I find women to be beautiful and attractive the way you made them. When I look at women I see why men are attracted to them. I am attracted to them for the same reasons. I know what it says in the bible about same sex relationships but I don't agree that gay people are an abomination how could they be? You created gay people to you created everyone. It is my understanding that satan can not create anything. You are the one and only creator of heaven and earth and the universe. I also don't think I would be able to experience such pleasure being with a woman if wasn't so beautiful. I don't believe that satan can make something that beautiful. I know you created sex to be beautiful! The truth is if you want me to be different than what I am you have to change me. I prayed that you would take my desires for women away from me because of the teachings that I grew up with abut same sex relationships being wrong. You never took my desires for women away from me. When my relationship with my girlfriend ended I thought it might be best for me to abstain from same sex relationships. I have but the desires are still there now more than ever. And I honestly don't think it accomplished anything. I did what I was taught to be right but not what I really thought was right. God you have given me many gifts and talents. You have called me into ministry. I have a writing ministry and it is all because of you and me doing what you called and anointed me to do. I want people to know that you love them. I haven't been in a same sex relationship for years now but I know it doesn't change my sexuality or who I am.