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So.... I've been "attacked " by the preop food monster! He has had a hold of me pretty much ever since the request to the INS company was sent in last Tuesday.
Then today, when I got my date, well... then not only did the monster attack again, but with the weirdest emotional roller coaster ride to go with. I have to say up front, I can be a crier :) Not like unhappy tears per say, just cry easily like at hallmark commercials and sappy movies. I finally decided a few years ago it is just who I am :)
However, today's tears have been all over the place... I imagine similar to someone getting ready to check into rehab... or maybe kinda like when I divorced my 1st husband.
Its like I've been in this relationship with a friend who I could always always always count on to be there for me... always! Thru it all I knew the friend was no good for me.... But I kept going back.... Even with the years of dieting, my old faithful and unhealthy relationship was still there!
Having surgery is like cutting the ties to this old friend. I know most of you know exactly what I am taking about. Today has been similar to when I kicked my ex out... I knew he had to go. I knew he was not healthy for me, even abusive. I knew I was better off without him. But after 16 years, it was still very hard to do!
Tonight, for my birthday my hubby took me out to dinner (A last splurge of sorts, good or bad, its what it is)... i ate good food and too much of it. Now... it is time to kick it to the curb. Cause my old friend no longer serves my needs. It is a painful yet necessary action. I know what I need now has nothing to do with this destructive relationship. ONLY a foodie would have to do this and only a foodie could begin to understand this relationship....
As I was boobing in the car to my hubby, telling him it was like ending a relationship with a friend I could always count on to be there for me... the dear sweet man says "sweetie, you have me... I'll always be here for me" This is wonderful, and I of course told him so... but then I also realized right then and there, that yeah he would always be there for me,and will always love me no matter what... But now... Now its time for ME to be there for ME and to love ME no matter what! That's what its time for...
And time to start focusing on where I want to go, rather than where I've been.
ENOUGH with this stupid eating! ENOUGH with this food relationship that is killing me! Tomorrow is a new day... and I am kicking the preop food monster to the friggin curb!
Yeah, I'm still gonna cry! Its who I am... But I gotta get a grip and let go! All at the same time :)
Love you guys! I really do!
Then today, when I got my date, well... then not only did the monster attack again, but with the weirdest emotional roller coaster ride to go with. I have to say up front, I can be a crier :) Not like unhappy tears per say, just cry easily like at hallmark commercials and sappy movies. I finally decided a few years ago it is just who I am :)
However, today's tears have been all over the place... I imagine similar to someone getting ready to check into rehab... or maybe kinda like when I divorced my 1st husband.
Its like I've been in this relationship with a friend who I could always always always count on to be there for me... always! Thru it all I knew the friend was no good for me.... But I kept going back.... Even with the years of dieting, my old faithful and unhealthy relationship was still there!
Having surgery is like cutting the ties to this old friend. I know most of you know exactly what I am taking about. Today has been similar to when I kicked my ex out... I knew he had to go. I knew he was not healthy for me, even abusive. I knew I was better off without him. But after 16 years, it was still very hard to do!
Tonight, for my birthday my hubby took me out to dinner (A last splurge of sorts, good or bad, its what it is)... i ate good food and too much of it. Now... it is time to kick it to the curb. Cause my old friend no longer serves my needs. It is a painful yet necessary action. I know what I need now has nothing to do with this destructive relationship. ONLY a foodie would have to do this and only a foodie could begin to understand this relationship....
As I was boobing in the car to my hubby, telling him it was like ending a relationship with a friend I could always count on to be there for me... the dear sweet man says "sweetie, you have me... I'll always be here for me" This is wonderful, and I of course told him so... but then I also realized right then and there, that yeah he would always be there for me,and will always love me no matter what... But now... Now its time for ME to be there for ME and to love ME no matter what! That's what its time for...
And time to start focusing on where I want to go, rather than where I've been.
ENOUGH with this stupid eating! ENOUGH with this food relationship that is killing me! Tomorrow is a new day... and I am kicking the preop food monster to the friggin curb!
Yeah, I'm still gonna cry! Its who I am... But I gotta get a grip and let go! All at the same time :)
Love you guys! I really do!
I have to say, the day I walked into the surgery center I knew that was it for me, no more sweets probably forever. You have to get your mind set and stick with it. Put your eyes on the prize and don't lose site of it. You will feel so much better, look so much better and be so much more healthier!!!
Your hubby is probably totally scared, but being as supportive as he can. What a great guy! Kind of like mine.
After the surgery you will be better, you aren't hungry! you have to concentrate on getting all your protein and water each day and you can't eat very much so there is no room for extra.
You'll be fine, but go ahead and cry-get it out and then move on and get ready for that surgery!!!!
I'm here if ya need me, just let me know =)
Jealous of the hub, mine just can't quite get it. I think he wants to, but I would have to give him step by step instructions. Lol.
Becky, good point! We need to stay vigilant or the food monster could creep back in.... :)
TODAY I have a handle on this thing.... And am going to ALL DAY LONG! (dang it!)
You can do this Becca... You are so prepared and you have so many people supporting you and here to help you through this process....
I have the utmost faith in you, and look so forward to reading all your success stories... Only two weeks to go my friend....
The pre-op food monster got me too. I ate anything I thought I would miss. I don't know if that is why, but the liquid pre-op diet did not bother me. So far, the post hasn't been too bad either. I had a VERY busy weekend and did not give in to the urge to eat some cheese off a pizza my grands were having. Small victory there! But I KNOW it will be tempting again. I just hope I can beat the monster back like you have! With the help of the people on here, I think we can all do it! Stay strong!
I know that a few months after the surgery when the head hunger and the real hunger starts to return we are going to continue needing to be strong. Hopefully when that times comes we will find the tools to get through them!
Congratulations on getting your surgery date BTW - I'm jealous! I just finally got an appointment for a consultation with my surgeon.
you have been and continue to be such an inspiration to me.... You are such a blessing to so many... this entry read as a novel of sorts... hitting the nail on the head how our relationship with food had became the devil pretending to be our friend where in fact its attempt has been to destroy us.. and it almost won... but by the grace of God we are being given a tool.. and a WONDERFUL online community to fight it... and God knows it is a battle... You are going to do wonderful... no doubt in my mind... You will have your ups and downs but you are prepared... knowledgeable.. and so very determined...I too can't wait to follow your "success" stories... !!!!
Saying goodbye to the old friend, food, is very hard. But you are right....we don't need that anymore. It harms us.
Good stuff.
I am soooo happy that you got your date! I am still waiting on my call for my surgery date. It should come any day now.
I feel the same way about loosing a friend, even tho it was not good for me I could always turn to it. I understand and I also know that you are ready for this girl.....you have done the work and I know, without a doubt, you will be a success.
I start my liquid diet next Wednesday.... I have two protein shakes then a light dinner the first 5 days, then clear liquid the last 2 :) So not as bad as some!