You can do this. 50 Days is huge. You are at the half way mark where they say it gets easier. You have gotten through urges before you will get through this one. Quit4good says to have a relapse prevention plan for every trigger. you could write one now and start working on that. Take a bath, spend time with grandkids, go for a walk, go shopping read a fun book like Erma Bombeck or Dave Berry or some other funny book. you are doing this you have it. It will pass. As will the periods of boredom and anxiety. To quote quit for good again it's better to be a little bored than in the hell we were in gambling. I have been re-reading the posts on here. Mine and other peoples, it helps to know how others struggle and cope. You've got this!

Thanks Newgirl55. Your suggestions sound good. Isn't it weird how some weeks are more difficult than others. It is really hot outside but I decided to jump in the pool and do some laps. (Not many, and not too fast) lol. This seemed to help with the anxious feelings. The longest I have been clean during the last 10 years is 56 days so I am a bit nervous abou this. Thanks for your encouragement. The only thing that I know for sure right now is that I will not gamble today.

Thanks for quoting me, but I do want to stress that none of my suggestions are original. Someone else gave those gems to me. Writing out a "goodbye" letter to gambling can be helpful.
Exercise replaces some of the dopamine that you are missing. Doing anything creative will cause your brain to grow new neural pathways.
Addiction of any kind - physically wears a pathway in our brain - in the case of gambling it may be more like a trench than a pathway. If you take out art supplies, begin to journal, dance, sing, garden, etc, when you have a trigger to gamble, eventually you form a new pathway, even a different way of thinking. Eventually we have an option or two in our brains - so that there IS a choice besides gambling.
The urges subside for most of us in intensity and frequency around the 3-4 month range of abstinence. They may never go completely away, I don't know. I only have an urge now (at 21 months of abstinence), when I have stressful events and occasionally they come out of nowhere. Now I have many tools to call on and life is so much better that I never want to go back to the ugly thing that passed for living while gambling.
You are on the right track, deep breaths, friends, gratitude, a little exercise, feed yourself healthy food, get the best sleep you can and just do the next right thing is enough for now.

Great job making it past 50 days! That "bubbling under my skin" feeling is one I recognize--and truly hate. Among the many ways my addict has of trying to trick me into thinking it's ok to gamble, that one is just about the worst. It makes me think I either have to gamble, or tear off my skin. Intellectually I know it will pass, but in the moment it's a tough trigger to manage. Physical exercise is about the only thing that shuts it down long enough for me to regroup. Paced breathing sometimes helps. It does eventually pass, and then it feels great to know that I made it though. If I don't give in, I know that when it comes back I'll be that much stronger to fight it.

Thanks for your suggestions everyone. I do believe that exercise is a key to my not tearing off my skin. I wish I enjoyed it more. I will force myself to do something physical from now on because the swimming did help. Maybe the exercise will start to get easier too. I know that you have talked about art on many occasions. I am going to go purchase some art supplies after GA tonight. Art has never been a strength but the new pathways sound terrific. Oh yea, most importantly, I did not go to the casino and it is surprising even me. Your advice and words of encouragement mean the world to me as I know you have all been through the same insanity that I am facing. Please keep posting as I check in every day and love to read your thoughts.