Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
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Okay, sugar, a bag of candy isn’t safe around me because I feel the need to finish it off! That just sounds so pitiful, sunflower seeds can really keep me busy! lol
I know that being an addict I’ll always try to replace one addiction with another, yet it never ceases to amaze me when it happens.
Today I have no urges to gamble and I’m grateful for that.
Qwit, I love when a post makes me think like this one does ❤️
My cardio rehab folks suggested fruit for desert. If the fruit is ripe and sweet that works for me. But winter leaves us with just canned or frozen choices.
I handle my depression similarly to how I handle my addictions, by being proactive and using some of the tools I have learned in treatment for addiction. First, let me say that I have learned that some depression is normal. It is okay and normal to feel depressed at times because we are aging or our bodies are taken over by gravity/don't work right, or friends have passed away. (Elongated depression for no apparent reason is a better definition of clinical depression.) With that said, I must be aware of my thoughts in order to not allow myself to take things into the spiral abyss that can become that paralyzing depression that has me hiding in bed with covers over my head, unable to motivate myself, nor care much about anything. So like my gambling addiction, I must redirect my negative thoughts, before they get too far down a scary path and not allow myself to dwell on them. The last 2 months I have begun to employ a trick I learned on Oprah some years ago, I tell myself every morning, in the mirror, "I love you", I look myself in the eyes and wait until I feel a connection and say it. It sounds silly, but it does really help with how I feel about me.
Next in my morning routine is to read an affirmation from "Affirmations for Adult Children of Alcoholics" - I then usually, not always, (as I don't really want to be military about it), write a journal entry that relates to the affirmation. As I eat my toast and drink my cup of broth to get my morning meds down, I usually write out two or three things that I am grateful for on little slips of paper. I have a glass jar with a wired lid on my table that is about full with little pieces of paper that remind me what I have to be grateful for. If I get down, I pull some out and read them, especially if I can't think of any reason to be grateful. It helps so much to focus on what I do have, rather than what I do not have. It has gotten me out of my former habit of long periods of depression.
Thanks to journaling, posting here, talking to my counselor, talking with my friends about these issues I do not feel the need to engage in my addictions, I won't gamble today.
And Qwit, yes, the sugar addiction is real. I can almost feel my depression begging for anything to change my head, especially since I quit drinking just over 2 yrs ago. I’m grateful I haven’t experience strong urges to gamble since I quit over 2 and half yrs ago (33 months ago), of course I still think about it, and when I say think about, I mean I still remember the pain it caused me, I’ve had moments where I think “oh yeah, this is where a drink would do me good”, those are always stressful times, and I know the reality is “a drink wouldn’t do me any good at all”. That’s why I quit.
I wish I could quit depression. I’ve lived with it so long, I’m use to the ups and downs, the waves, so to speak, and hiding it as best I can. I’m on meds and have been for most of my adult life. It’s strange how my depression can cause me to forget (I guess that’s what I’m calling it) to take my meds, sometimes for days. And to go long periods of time without eating, then bingeing on late night sugar crap.
I’m gonna stop there for now. Well except to say, our group is little compared to the depression group here, but it’s where I need to be.
Thank you all
Today I will not gamble