So, the last few days I have been in a funk, depressed, and feeling it. This morning, I was working with a buyer on a listing I have, whereby I am listing if for free, its my boss and his home, so I didn't charge a commission. The buyer is going to purchase the home, and I am working with both the buyer and the seller, for no fee. But, here is the deal. The buyers proceeded to tell me how much they appreciate my help, they complimented me, beyond my expectations, and they have no idea I'm working for free (I should be making 30k.) I hung up the phone, sitting in my backyard, and thought "wow" I need to pull my head out of my ...

Yes, I was broken emotionally since my last relapse, 8/4, but today I have not placed a bet. Yes, I did a LOT of damage financially and I'm worried about that, very worried in fact, but I have not placed another bet.

I need to remember, as long as I don't place the next bet, I work my program, and I put one foot in front of the other, things will be okay. I have just been so sad, that I've been stuck in my house, dwelling on the what ifs, kind of secluding if you will.

I'm going to change my clothes, and go outside, feel the sunshine, walk mu dogs and thank God for what I do have, I'm going to finally after 14 days of feeling sad, remember, I have today, tomorrow isn't promised and I need to live it,

Today I am not sitting in a casino, today I am participating in my life, and my journey, that in itself, is pure and good, and hope.

xoxoxoxoxo love u my sweet warriors.