You have come to the right place. Most of us, in order to initially quit, have to place some barriers between ourselves and our money. Giving up credit, debit cards, leaving checkbook at home, carrying little or no cash. Getting a prepaid debit card that a trusted person creates the PIN for and does not share with us. We must first stem the bleeding in order to see the wound.
Face to face support group in combination with a good addiction counselor who specializes in gambling addiction and hard internal work on my childhood issues, including grief/loss, abandonment, resentment and self esteem has really helped me.
Work on rekindling friendships and hobbies or try to find new ones of each. Begin to practice meticulous self-care.
Keep reading and posting and start creating a plan about what to do different next time you are compulsed to gamble.
Life is so much better today, I am Eight months into abstinence and my life is worth living again. There is a great life waiting for you, I know you can get there.

yes, me and alcohol and gambling are a deadly combo, you can quit, I can quit, we all have the power to do it, stick around detail all of your struggles and thoughts, we need you just as much as you need us, what i have found with this disease, is that 1) it can always be worse so don't flip out about your situation 2) abstinence and healthy thinking is the only way out 3) don't ever tempt yourself, we are not strong when it comes to this, you can be a CEO and still succumb to the pressure

i wish i could practice what i preach 100%, its not a daily struggle anymore, more like a life struggle, but i'm learning

Welcome @icoi!

I'm sorry to hear that your gambling feels like it has spiraled out of control. I know i certainly felt that way for nine years, going further and further down the rabbit hole. (And the financial hole!) And I know many of the people here feel the same way.

Here is what has worked for me:

1.) Self-banning.
Self-ban took all of the decision making out of the process for me. I am a young woman and I know nearly all of the dealers and pit bosses at two local casinos. I know at least the pit bosses were all alerted that I had self-banned. If I were to set foot in one after the self ban, I am practically guaranteed to be headed for a citation and probation time. If self-banning is available in your state, please do it.

2.) Hand over financial control.
I handed over my finances to my fianc. While this was initially quite difficult and caused a few moments of strife in our relationship, it ended up being the Very Best Thing. As others in this group have said, the first step is admitting you are powerless over your gambling, and it has made your life controllable. By handing over financial control, you are not only saying you are powerless, but you are admitting it with your actions. And that is crucial to healing, as contradictory as it sounds.

3.) Find affirmations that work for you.
I personally find Louise Hay so amazing. I have "How to Heal Your Life" and "Heart Thoughts," and I carry the latter around with me. Just opening up a page and recognizing that I can tell myself I love and accept myself all day long is so powerful. We tend to think of things like this as hokey or cheesy or impractical, but repeating "I love and accept myself" or "I forgive myself" or "I move past old limitations" over and over to yourself all day really, really helps. I swear it.

4.) Find new hobbies that are not negative.
I'm still working on this. Everything feels a little boring in comparison to craps, which is what I was addicted to. I really miss the fast action, the risk taking, and even the social interaction that came along. But I've been reading a lot and admittedly working a lot, which are a lot better than gambling! The boredom will eventually leave. "All things heal with time."

5.) Find support groups.
I'm on here all the time, and I know a few others are too!

Thank you all for your kind replies and suggestions, and congrats on 8 months qwit4good.

I know I definitely need to take some different steps this time around. I am planning on handing credit cards over to mom later today. I still have quite a bit of available credit which I know is dangerous.

I would like to self ban but right now I'm not sure how without going in the Casino. Wouldn't they have to see me face or something? I really don't want to go anywhere near the place as I don't think I can handle that.

I also agree that I need to focus on some new hobbies. I've gotten in contact with friends I haven't seen lately and I've volunteered on Sunday and I will again tonight. It feels much better than gambling.

Thank you again everyone. I really appreciate your support.

In my state to self ban you have to go in person to the casino....As soon as you walk in go to security and tell them you want to self ban. They will take you to the person who handles it. Yes it's difficult but it has helped me tremendously. I felt so much better after it was done. You can do it!

Thanks everyone. I'm doing well as far as not gambling (and not drinking) but I'm feeling pretty low today. I went out to lunch with a friend and my card got declined. I guess there was some money in the account but they froze it after I made three large withdrawals (at the casino) in one night...but it's weird I've used it with pin since then? How embarrassing to have to call the bank and say those charges were me. Ugh. I've been working two jobs for the last 6 months and it's all just...gone. I should be financially stable by now (easily) but I'm borrowing money from mom to pay bills.

Anyway, thanks for listening. I know this will get better in time. :)

Yes, time is our friend....it minimizes the memory of the struggles we go through today, dulls the addictive draw that our demons have on us, opens new doors for a life filled with joy ......I actually want never to forget the darkness and destruction this addiction has caused, but rather smile knowing I defeated this goliath

It's all a process. It might stink in the beginning, but it's a part of a process. Make a savings plan and aim to be better in six months. Don't define yourself by the temporary.