Gambling Addiction & Recovery Support Group
Compulsive gambling is an urge or addiction to gamble despite harmful negative consequences or a desire to stop. A preferred term among many professionals is problem gambling, as few people described by the term experience true compulsions in the clinical sense of the word. Problem gambling often is defined by whether harm is experienced by the gambler or others rather...
I went out to the casino the other night, and I lost $30.00 dollars and left. I been really weepy these last few days, and heartbroken because my 4 year relationship finally ended. I loved this man with all my heart, but because he's abusive and an alcoholic I had to leave him. So I decided to go to the casino and just disappear into a machine for a couple of hours. It didn't help. I still feel like crying. I am also in an affair which doesn't help because I know what kind of drama that will bring, but its fun right now. Just thought I would try to let some of my grief go right now. Maybe one day i will finally realize whom my creator is and trullly carry a real relationship with him and be satisfied with him and myself. Right now I havent reached that point :(
I binge when I gamble. I am not sure what to call it. I go so long without it maybe a month. and then I go haywire and gamble every penny I have in my hand. Sometimes I can go up to two months without it. But when I do I just bet on those slots like there is no tomorrow. Then when I go through some sort of trauma, I just go and disappear into a machine. Its a wierd kind of addiction