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we are all mess in recovery :)

@angie443 - Self-banning saved me. I own a business and i can't have a criminal record for trespassing, so the self-ban in my state honestly was what did it for me.

If your state doesn't have self-ban, then you need to be willing to try lots of different methods. Journaling, meditation, exercise, guided imagery, therapy, GA meetings, reading books on addiction, using this forum a lot, long walks.

Someone once told me that you have to make recovery the #1 priority in your life, because it is what holds your self-worth, your family, your career, your spirit and your sanity together. If you don't stick with recovery, you could ultimately lose everything. So do what you have to do in order to recover. Take time off from work. Go on a vacation. Be selfish for a while. Do what you need.

Let someone else hold your money, checkbook, debit, credit card even ID if you must. Put barrier's between yourself and your money. Even hire a payee - send your paycheck to them and put yourself on a weekly allowance. Some folks put money, cards and checks in a lockbox and give it to a friend. Self banning at the casino helps some.
Changing my FALSE belief that I could get ahead by gambling helped me. I can never get ahead because a win is just more fuel to continue longer until every penny is gone.
And my FALSE belief that gambling was fun. It wasn't fun for me anymore.

Learning the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome.
And that if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Getting therapy helped me. The national problem gambling help line can tell you what services are available in your State. Therapy may be free of charge. It is in my State.
Doing something, anything other than gambling helps.
Hike, volunteer, do something for someone else, exercise, go to the library, go to a park, a movie, a play, a farmer's market.
Be honest, with yourself and others, open to try things, and have to the willingness. do the work and you will get there.