It really takes 90-120 days to level out the dopamine in your brain. I think around 80 days, I started feeling like the fog was clearing from my brain and the anxiety was subsiding.
Exercise helped me a lot, even just a ten minute walk. (exercise release dopamine too) Art work helped the anxiety as well as a guided imagery tape.
Going to the library and getting audio books to listen to at night helped me sleep.
Sorry you are feeling so awful.
Here, I made you a cup of Chai tea with cream and honey. U3

Know that feeling so well. My normal was when I was in action,so at times the anxiety is overwhelming. But I also know I am better off this way for I was so miserable with that monkey always on my back. I know the first 90 days are hell but it does get easier if you give yourself that chance. Take care.

is this your first time at 32 days? the longest i went was six months, and in between that i do alot of 3 weeks clean, seems the 21th day is when it slowly starts to scratch at me - and then i will gamble and then clean for 3 weeks, etc. but each time i quit its easier and easier and calmer and longer and the quitting is not so hard, its sort of like "are you kidding me" you're back here again, and my pysche starts to change and it talks real sense to me instead of "go you deserve it" go you have money now - its more like so i have money and time, i dont care what my cravings say, its up to ME to walk to the car and drive there, i dont have to anymore, i may WANT TO, but i dont HAVE TO you'll get there - you have no choice but to get there eventually, do it now or later

My fog lifted at about the 2 month mark. In terms of "feeling normal", that's been an ongoing process. But, yes, it does get better, for sure.

I fell into a depression when I first quit gambling and it lasted a long time. I had gambled to escape my feelings. I no longer had a crutch when I stopped. I had a whole lot of things to face. I decided that I would just go ahead and feel like crap.... that I would feel my feelings for once, instead of running from them. I was in therapy at the time too.

It helped me to start something I called a Joy Journal. Every couple of days I would write a favorite memory of a happy time in it or I would tape a picture of something that made me happy (my kids when they were little or my marathon finish). I kept it very simple. I think it helped remind me that I had had happy times in my life and I would again.

Congrats on 32 days. That's a huge accomplishment right there!

Congratulations on 32 days! As for feeling "normal" I have no clue what that is, normal is a relatively lose word, meaning, my normal is different than your normal. Now, feeling somewhat happy, that took time for me, several months, but I have to remind myself that happy, pink cloud and losing track of what my recovery is all about, can be trouble for me. So, I don't think I personally will ever be "normal" but, I would take a happy day not gambling vs a bad day gambling, all day long and twice on Sunday. Congrats again.

I completely understand. I have my great days and bad days. I'm 55 days now and it is a challenge to remain clean. But I am willing to accept the challenge to change my life. Hang in there it will get better!