So sorry you are struggling. It's hard to stop because the addiction just takes us over, consequences be damned. When I first stopped gambling, it felt like three steps forward, two steps back, repeat, repeat, repeat, until I finally had enough GF time that my brain had a chance to settle down and I could really start recovery. At first, though, I just had to focus on making sure I didn't go to the casinos. As long as I didn't open the door, I was safe. For the first few weeks at least, it might help to block access to the casino by self-banning, and to block access to funds by giving your money to a trusted friend to hold for you. That way, when you get an urge--and you will, we all do--you won't be able to dig yourself deeper into trouble. Eventually you will find things you like to do that will help get you through those urges: call a friend, take a walk, if it's late put on your PJs so you won't be tempted to leave the house, read a book, do some art...anything non-addicting that will keep you occupied until the urge passes. Have you called the hotline to find out if there are additional resources besides GA in your area? 1-800-522-4700. Especially at first, I think we have to do whatever it takes to stop. I know some people who went to at least one meeting every day for a while, including AA or Al-Anon, or whatever they could find, just to get quit and give their brains time to heal. I know you are in a very dark place now, and I can tell you that it does get better with time and help. I'm glad you reached out, and I wish you well.

Please self ban. That has been a life saver for me. Prayer and meditation helps. I am so sorry you are going through this hell. I pray you find what works to give you strength to say goodbye to gambling!

relapse is part of recovery, its ok, start again, make a plan, and keep it set, its the only way, its a brain disease, it will take over if you let it

ban, ban, ban

best to you

Giving up control of my money and being accountable to someone else helped me initially. I did not self ban because I did not gamble in casinos hardly. Most of my gambling was at small bars, delis, restaurants that are each allowed 6 machines in my State. Of which there are hundreds of places within a 5 mile radius, maybe thousands. Self banning tasks would have been monumental.
I had counselor help me to figure out that I did not think I was worth it, the whole effort, I did not think I deserved anything better. I had to get out of the self-abuse cycle I was inflicting on myself.
Get over being disappointed and dwelling on the pain and shame, become a best friend to yourself. Your best friend might say, I am disappointed in you, but they won't leave it at that. They will roll up their sleeves and begin to work at the mess you've made along side of you. You must befriend yourself.
Blame is for God and children the rest of us just figure out where to go from here.

We all know that dark place. The gloom of gambling. The what's wrong with me. Why??!!!! But I have something now I haven't had before. HOPE. Hope that I can beat this addiction. It's weird how I feel. Kind of at peace right now. Knowing I can't gamble anywhere around here. After loosing my money Sunday , before I left casino I went straight to players club and Banned myself from the only other place I could go to gamble. Now that was a big deal for me. You know i had to Have somewhere I could still go to . in the past i was quitting but not really. Slowing down.. But Not at all. Blocking cards ,checks atm access. Roadblocks all around but still gambling. always finding a way to go and give up my paychecks. But Sunday the walk of shame wasn't so bad knowing I can't return because the thoughts of jail for Trespassing are enough to keep me off their property. And who wants them to keep a jackpot ( that never happens) and forfeit tickets etc. I'm just not a type of person who could handle jail or handle trouble with the law. So now begins gamble free time and me having some moneyyyy....... Hang in there. We can start this time to be gamble free together. Prayers to ya.

It's tough time to go thru, I had a similar problem but found setting small achievement markers really helped, I would reward myself when I met these targets with something simple & totally unrelated to my gambling/drinking. You need support from any family & friends they should be your pillars of support..

I don't want to sound mean but you not at rock bottom, If you keep gambling it will surely get worst. My definition of rock bottom was re defined several times during my addiction struggles. So many people on this forum lost homes, jobs and meaningful relationships. This is a very awful illness! Your problem's half solved, you here! You seeking help! We all in this together, no matter how many times you stumble, the most important thing is that you pick yourself up. The few days you stayed gamble free was not wasted, that's progress!!! Next time, it will be better. Soon we will celebrate 1 month, then 1 yr gamble free with you! Stay strong, it gets better! I wont gamble today

What helped me was I called the National Council on Problem Gambling and was told of the free gambling treatment resources available.
Please consider doing that too -- you don't have to die because you don't know how to live.