I am so happy that I have made it to Day 11. My last bet was 12 days ago. I was so hopeless on that Sunday driving home from the casino flat broke with barely enough gas to get to work the next day. I was tired of being broke after each payday so I decided that night to go online and find a support forum with people that understood my situation. It was a blessing to find DS because it gave me the hope and support I needed at my weakest moment. Recovery is very hard and last week was rough. I had withdrawals and severe anxiety knowing today was payday. But I was determined to take financial inventory and create a budget I could live with today. It worked!! I bought my son his graduation gift online, paid some bills online and filled my car with gas. I also limited my ATM withdrawal limit to $40. My decision to be GF today is all possible with the support from all my friends here on DS. I know we have never met and some many not even know my real name but we are truly friends in every sense of the word. You all know my deep down secrets that I cannot even share with my immediately family. Today I am thankful that I am committed to recovery. And a big Thank You... Thank You... Thank You to all of you who are walking by my side in this journey. I have a long way to go and a big uphill battle but at least for today I am hopeful I can make the walk and climb the mountain to hopefully get to the other side of recovery. xoxoxo Chargergirl