Couple of months ago I found this website and have been checking it on periodically. However, it wasnt enough =(
Just to update everyone...that downward spiral came quicker than a vacuum this time around. I stopped gambling for a couple of weeks and when I came across some cash the disease/addiction picked up right where I left it. Unfortunately, not only have I lost control of my addiction but I have lost my family as well. Came home from work last week and noticed our room was different...his clothes were gone, tv was gone and drawers emptied; I was on a gambling binge a couple days prior. He did not mention he was leaving at all even though hes mentioned in the past he will if I dont stop gambling but this time he did not say a word and had me figure it out on my own. I understand that hes had more than enough of putting up with my crap (11 years to be exact) and I dont blame him. I just hope that this is just temporary even though he says its permanent. I will attend the first meeting that is available in my area this coming Friday and there is also one on Tuesdays; I will make it to meetings to get through this recovery process even if I have to do it for the rest of my life. I am so scared; by scared I am afraid I will be gamble free for a certain amount of time, everything falls back into place and BAM! at it again!!
Im confused through it all too, he still answers my texts, phone calls and still has our house keys.
Taking it ONE DAY AT A TIME!!
Any feedbacks, prayers, critizism is greatly appreciate and will help me through this.
I am so upset today. I would go out and gamble today if a casino was open. I tried reading some posts; can't say it has helped me today. Tired of my computer, tired of househld chores, how much food can you eat and how many times can you go grocery shoping? Wondering if someone could make a post here when they get to go to a face to face meeting. I stoped going to meetings regularly; I am not on...
Hi! It's been 1 year and 4 months since my last bet!