GA meetings regularly atleast twice a week, spread out through the week is the only thing that has helped me. I am still a work in progress, but if you want a lifetime of abstinence try GA. It’s a proven fact based on the members of GA that have gotten help through the 12 step recovery program. I know exactly that agony that your feeling. I also know how certain people don’t understand addiction. Self exclusion is an option as well. Please know you are not alone and many others are suffering just as you are. Are there GA meetings in your area?

Talk to us, here. We’re all ears, we want to hear it all; in other words, you are not alone. I’m grateful you have someone to handle your money, even if he doesn’t understand this addiction. My husband handles our money because of my addiction, so I do understand your frustration. My addiction reared it’s ugly head approximately 15 yrs ago, that is when my husband was wise enough to not trust me with access to credit cards or bank accounts. He still doesn’t understand this addiction, although he hates it, and, finally, so do I. Hate isn’t a word I use loosely. I hate gambling because it ended up almost killing me. I hated myself through and through. I tried to put up a front of not hating my life, but I did. Happiness eluded me. I was a liar, day in and day out.
Love yourself enough to take better care of your heart.
I’m 19 months gambling free, I’m changing the way I treat myself, I’m learning to love myself, one day at a time.
Today I will not gamble

I agree with " The Young addict", find a ga meeting in your area best thing i ever did .i am nearly 4 years without a bet now ,you will other compulsive gamblers that under what you are going through and be able give you guidance.

You are not alone. There are many, just like you with this addiction. The trick is, learning to live life, broken sewer lines, children, work, etc., in recovery. Rather than run to a casino, we learn to live life without it. Its a process, its recovery. Hate is a very strong word, and an even stronger energy sucking emotion. Breath, remember, to breath. It will be okay, as long as you don't place a bet, everything else will work out the way its supposed to. In my recovery, it would be super easy to run, from my emotions, issues, problems, etc., as it sure is a great "excuse." What I've learned is, its the addiction in my head, trying to convince me that it would just be easier to go and gamble, to make some money to take care of my financial issues.... THAT WILL NOT WORK, ITS BEEN TRIED, OVER AND OVER AGAIN. On top of that, after losing, or lets say you win, you will go back, again and again, until you have nothing left, and then, the emotion and feeling of self hatred cycle will start all over again. Don't forget, where you were the last time you wanted to quit, or the time before that, or before that. Remember, you are in recovery. No room for hate, plenty of room for growth, allow it to happen. Hang in there.

Hate is definitely an energy-sucking emotion. And yet, we're humans, so we can't escape that we're gonna feel whatever we're gonna feel: hate and love, joy and sadness, hope and despair. I am working on learning to recognize/accept my negative emotions when they show up, so that I can consciously do something to change them. If I try to pretend I don't feel anger or dread or depression, I end up feeling guilty for not feeling positive all the time, which just contributes to the cycle. It's a work in progress, and all I really know is that I will not be gambling today.

You can also call the the national problem gambling help line to talk to someone. They are trained gambling addiction counselors and often are recovering gamblers as well. 1-800-522-4700. In my first 90 days of abstinence I called them and the National suicide prevention folks (1-800-273-8255) when I needed to. I had a hard time, sleeping to begin with and they are awake at 2 AM when others might not want to talk. I was often triggered to gamble when alone late at night. I also felt worse right after I quit gambling and did not feel better until around 3 and a half months of abstinence.
Making myself do something besides be depressed was sometimes like moving through waist high mud. Ultimately, counseling, exercise, meditation, meticulous self care, and abstinence helped get back to caring about life. Then remembering the things I enjoyed once about life and going about living it outside the dark maze of my compulsive gambling. I won't be gambling today.

I feel the exact same way nothing I do is good enough I make good money then think that I can go to the casino and win more I’m so sad I work my butt off I want this gambling to stop but I don’t know how I’m in debt up to my eyeballs and I just cant seem to stop I want to but nothing helps I feel your pain my car is falling apart and I keep thinking ima hit some big jackpot and all my problems are goin to be solved.

nn44,
One day at a time is how we deal with this addiction. Recovery has to start somewhere, to say today I will not gamble and mean it. Soon days begin to add up and life becomes livable again. Read all you can here, there’s of good advice.
Today I will not gamble