11/22/17 was the day I got my life back. I am a few months behind on my bills however I am calm, because I know now I can dig myself out of debt and not into it. Last Friday was the first Friday i can remeber in some time in which, my paycheck was mine. What a great feeling. Although I owed every dollar, it was still mine, and the casino didnt and couldnt get to it first. Now i am looking forward to Fridays, getting my pay and coming out of debt. Treating myself to something small like starbucks once in a while.
In 12 days, I find myself focused more than usal. In 12 days, I seem to be laughing more than usal, doing a few things around the house, over all having a life. When I talk to my family member who gambles, I have other conversation and if gambling comes up, I change the subject becasue i dont want to hear who won what at the casino. I work a part time job and i am looking forward to that paycheck to be mine as well. I still have to pay my bills, but not having money after all the bills are paid is a much greater feeling that not having money after you left it in th casino. Its a much happier feeling.
In the 12 days I get the urge and laugh to myself becasue I self excluded, and no I wouldnt risk arrest. I dont believe my mugshot would be flattering. lol. Arrest scares me more the finaicial ruins that gambling has gotten me into, thats why self excluison was best for me. When my over due bills come or I get that call, I want to run down and hope to hit big, knowing I would put it all back in plus. But day by day, my urges will pass gradually. I will stay strong and I will not gamble today.
12 days and counting,
felt like gambling today! Haven’t placed a bet in 7 months,instead of gambling which I know is a complete waste of time!! Even if I win I just gamble more and eventually lose it all and even more of own money!!So instead I post here and read other posts. Be strong people it can be over come,one day at a time
I have no desire to gamble today, but it’s on my mind, especially this time of year. This time last year I was a shell of a human being filled with fear. Why? Because of gambling, my addiction. At the time it seemed like my world was crashing down all around me, everything was wrong, I had no idea which way to turn. I thought I could juggle my addiction with my life, but it wasn’t...