Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
People talking about how great eating something is/feels.
For example, my roommate was eating a chocolate mochi ice cream ball tonight and was so expressive about how amazing it is. I've binged on them before so trust me, I know how amazing they are. It just sucks because I try to tell myself that food isn't as great as I think it is and then people without a problem like me express how it is so great. Sometimes it makes me just want to start screaming, "Yes I know how great it is! Eating that is the most amazing feeling in the world! It makes everything else seem so unimportant and I can't think of doing anything else right now except eating that! And after I eat it I want more and more and more until I think I'm going to throw up!" The funny thing is that I could say that to someone and they would laugh along and agree that they feel the same way....but they don't. The thing is that I feel so much more intense about it and I really would feel that way and do all those things. That other person is just saying it but would never actually do such a thing. Or if they would actually do it, it would happen maybe once but with me it could happen everyday, a few times a day if I could. So my point is, I hate it when other people talk about food, and how much they love it, when they don't realize that their feelings don't even compare to how much I, and all of you, feel.
My roommate comments on how she has an "unhealthy obsession" with certain foods she really likes.
No honey, you have no idea what that's really like. I have an unhealthy obsession with french fries, ice cream, peanut butter, frosting, soft baked cookies, etc. meaning I could eat it all day everyday....I highly doubt you would do that so don't tell me about your unhealthy obsession.
When people ask me why I don't want to eat something.
Why??? Because if I do I won't want to stop, that's why.
If only I could tell these people my real thoughts, but I can't. To explain how talking about food like this is like talking about getting wasted some night with an alcoholic....or telling them how good it feels to drink, or ask them why they don't want a drink, or a sip. It sucks to have a problem you can't just share with the world. For if I did, I would feel that everytime they would see me eat, they would be thinking about my problem....just like I think about a friend of mine being a possible alcoholic every time i see her drink.
What do non-bingers do or say that annoy you?
For example, my roommate was eating a chocolate mochi ice cream ball tonight and was so expressive about how amazing it is. I've binged on them before so trust me, I know how amazing they are. It just sucks because I try to tell myself that food isn't as great as I think it is and then people without a problem like me express how it is so great. Sometimes it makes me just want to start screaming, "Yes I know how great it is! Eating that is the most amazing feeling in the world! It makes everything else seem so unimportant and I can't think of doing anything else right now except eating that! And after I eat it I want more and more and more until I think I'm going to throw up!" The funny thing is that I could say that to someone and they would laugh along and agree that they feel the same way....but they don't. The thing is that I feel so much more intense about it and I really would feel that way and do all those things. That other person is just saying it but would never actually do such a thing. Or if they would actually do it, it would happen maybe once but with me it could happen everyday, a few times a day if I could. So my point is, I hate it when other people talk about food, and how much they love it, when they don't realize that their feelings don't even compare to how much I, and all of you, feel.
My roommate comments on how she has an "unhealthy obsession" with certain foods she really likes.
No honey, you have no idea what that's really like. I have an unhealthy obsession with french fries, ice cream, peanut butter, frosting, soft baked cookies, etc. meaning I could eat it all day everyday....I highly doubt you would do that so don't tell me about your unhealthy obsession.
When people ask me why I don't want to eat something.
Why??? Because if I do I won't want to stop, that's why.
If only I could tell these people my real thoughts, but I can't. To explain how talking about food like this is like talking about getting wasted some night with an alcoholic....or telling them how good it feels to drink, or ask them why they don't want a drink, or a sip. It sucks to have a problem you can't just share with the world. For if I did, I would feel that everytime they would see me eat, they would be thinking about my problem....just like I think about a friend of mine being a possible alcoholic every time i see her drink.
What do non-bingers do or say that annoy you?
"Just a little bit won't hurt" Well, I did the little bit thing and now it is a full blown thing.
"You're not fat"..I've like gained 40 lbs.
When I lost all my weight, I heard "oh dear, you are so skinny." "Are you okay? You don't want to lose much more", "You're not going to get anexeria (cant spell it) on us are you?"
Then I gain weight..."why dont you just quit eating?" GRRRR!