Food Addiction Support Group
An individual suffering from a food addiction disorder frequently experiences episodes of uncontrolled eating, or binging, during which they may feel frenzied or out of control. They will eat much more quickly than is normal, and continue to eat even past the point of being uncomfortably full. Binging in this way is generally followed by a period of intense guilt feelings...
hi-i went to a meeting yesterday. i might go again today. lately, i haven't been staying in the meetings, and i need to. i just will get bored a lot, so i leave and do other stuff.
the oa books i got are "the twelve steps" and "the twelve steps workbook". o also got oa's "big brown book". the books are designed to help you better understand the program, and to help you deal with the pitfalls of this particular eating disorder.
yesterday, i started doing the workbook. i have been saying and thinking about the steps for weeks, but i never really knew what they meant untill i started answering the questions in the book.
step one is to admit that we are powerless over food, and that our lives had become unmanageable because of it. the workbook then asks you to give a brief history of your experiences with compulsive overeating. here is what i wrote:
"step one is easy. for years, i couldn't understand what compelled me to buy extra food when i wasn't hungery. i didn't know as a teenager that my trips to the cafeteria before school were the beginning of a debilitating and miserable eating disorder. i have been unconcious of it for so long, but now that that god has shown me the truth i am absolutely in shock at how blind i have been. how could i have not seen this at 13, 16, or even 19? back then, all i knew was food made me feel better. i know where and how this started. i w. as 11, and mom had started abusing me. at first, i blamed it on mom having a bad day. then, i thought maybe if i wasn't disabled things between her and i would change. if i got better grades, was more independant...then maybe, just maybe, she'd wake up and be my mom again. to cover for her, i wore make-up. to cover for myself-to forget the nightmare i was living in-i ate. i thought once god lead me out of that, all would be well. i was wrong. a breakup called for cheesecake. a failed math test needed chocolate. every disappointment was solved with food. i have known i'm powerless over food since may and god knows i can't manage anything while still addicted to food."
honestly, i could write a book about my history with my ED. if you know of a diet, i could bet you money i've tried it at least once. nothing ever worked because when the diets failed me, i would binge.
thank you for all your sweet responses. i appreciate them all, and look forward to reading your advice and heartfelt messeges.-fallon
the oa books i got are "the twelve steps" and "the twelve steps workbook". o also got oa's "big brown book". the books are designed to help you better understand the program, and to help you deal with the pitfalls of this particular eating disorder.
yesterday, i started doing the workbook. i have been saying and thinking about the steps for weeks, but i never really knew what they meant untill i started answering the questions in the book.
step one is to admit that we are powerless over food, and that our lives had become unmanageable because of it. the workbook then asks you to give a brief history of your experiences with compulsive overeating. here is what i wrote:
"step one is easy. for years, i couldn't understand what compelled me to buy extra food when i wasn't hungery. i didn't know as a teenager that my trips to the cafeteria before school were the beginning of a debilitating and miserable eating disorder. i have been unconcious of it for so long, but now that that god has shown me the truth i am absolutely in shock at how blind i have been. how could i have not seen this at 13, 16, or even 19? back then, all i knew was food made me feel better. i know where and how this started. i w. as 11, and mom had started abusing me. at first, i blamed it on mom having a bad day. then, i thought maybe if i wasn't disabled things between her and i would change. if i got better grades, was more independant...then maybe, just maybe, she'd wake up and be my mom again. to cover for her, i wore make-up. to cover for myself-to forget the nightmare i was living in-i ate. i thought once god lead me out of that, all would be well. i was wrong. a breakup called for cheesecake. a failed math test needed chocolate. every disappointment was solved with food. i have known i'm powerless over food since may and god knows i can't manage anything while still addicted to food."
honestly, i could write a book about my history with my ED. if you know of a diet, i could bet you money i've tried it at least once. nothing ever worked because when the diets failed me, i would binge.
thank you for all your sweet responses. i appreciate them all, and look forward to reading your advice and heartfelt messeges.-fallon
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
. As they say "keep coming back, it works when you work it, and you get a lot of hugs".