I posted this on PTSD Board too but need all the support i can get right now

My brother has 4 felonys on him for child abuse, he goes to court in june for them. He went to jail on Monday for bail revoked on him on a domestic violence charge against his wife and mom bailed him out today he claims hes innocent. So hes innocent with every woman hes been with and the 3 children he supposidly abused incluiding his? Including having a 5 and 9 yr old watch porn? You guys i cant take this. I had to call my Cardiologist today i talked to the nurse because hes not in Till Friday neither is the NP they are in a training. Our hospital and medical building is being bought by a larger hospital system. I have been getting palpitations for years since my husbands car accidnet which will be 7 years ago in may. Well i am on meds to control them and its up to having them every 30 to 60 minutes at least when im awake, the nurse sadi since theres no chest pain bp is ok (thanks to meds) and pules stays 110 and under which is my normal on meds (168 and up off meds dangerous!) that she thinks its all stress and he may have me come in but that if i get chest pain call 911 etc. i been in the hosptial for my heart before last april 1st thru 5th i was they had thought i had a heart attack and major blockage by the stress test and echo but once they got in with a angiogram it was clear. The cardiologist said in December this past one that stress is really hurting my heart and that if im not careful it could cause serious damage. How can i not have stress? My life is stress!!!!!!!!! My brother is NOT allowed in my apartment he asked to come over the other day. He is not allowed this is my SAFE SPACE! I will not have anyone toxic in my home! What do i do you guys? I been abused all my life by men other than my dad (step dad who adopted me never hurt me, sperm donor i do not consider dad raped and abused me in other ways) I never been in a healthy relationship so i refuse to date even 5 years after my husband died who also abused me before he was too injured too. The PTSD is making the stress even worse and i cant handle this. My Dr told me Monday when i said i have NEVER been in this much pain with my fibro before os i must have the flu too and i threw up a few times the day before, she said you are in teh worst fibro flare you ever had and its caused by stress and when your body cant handle hte pain you will throw up. We are trying to get the inflammation down because even oxy doesnt help. I am on high dose of klonopin twice a day. I am just shaking with stress.