I was just diagnosed as well and feel the same way. I have the problem that if I feel good for a day I need to do everything I can and end up pushing myself way to far where it puts me down for an entire week. I'm trying to learn my limits and accept this ridiculous disease. I have some days where I'm ok with it but most days I can't think about it because I know I'll fall apart. I'm so thankful I found this place. It makes me feel less crazy and less alone. We are all here for you.

I can't remember a time I didn't accept. I get frustrated sometimes but lots of things in life can be frustrating.

Are you taking your gabapentin as directed? I didn't think it was an "as needed" kind of med. Thought it needed a constant blood level to be effective. Not sure about that but it's something to consider.

Hope you have less pain today.

I have had this for a long time now, and I still find it hard to pace myself. When I feel good I push myself beyond my limits and then I suffer for a week or so. Today I am useless - I have had to cancel my plans for the day :(
All I can say is - hang in there. Some days are better than others, and some weeks are better than others. In my opinion we can't give in to this nasty illness !! That opinion gets me in trouble most of the time - because I do push myself to the limit - but it beats giving in and sitting around having a pity party!!!
Good luck.

Acceptance and life style changes take a long time, especially if you are young. After you have it for a number of years and learn your limitations things become easier.

Gabapentin is not like a pain pill that you take and feel immediately. This is a drug that you have to take regularly and let it build up in your system before it starts to help. I know that it helps my horrible neuropathy like pain in my legs and feet.

Even though I was just diagnosed in the fall I don't feel I have struggled with the diagnosis. I mean, of course it's miserable when I am in so much pain I am nauseated, or can't walk, but I went through 2 years of tests and specialist hopping. In fact, my diagnosis was given to me on the condition that I didn't have bone cancer. So I was prepared for cancer, and fibro was a relief.

I do, at times, find it difficult to believe that my life will be somewhat limited. But at the end of the day it doesn't matter if I took it easy or not, I still feel like a heavy bag of garbage. I try to carry on like my life isn't affected because realistically for the most part it isnt. Not in any huge way anyway.

Maybe in 10 years I'll feel different, but for now fibro isn't the boss of me. Being upset about having this illness won't make me feel better or make it go away, so I really make an effort to be optimistic. Some days it's harder than others, but despite my pain and fatigue and insomnia I'm overall a happy and ambitious person.

xoxox I hope you are able to get some sort of emotional support here on DS. Fibro sucks and it can be devastating at times. It's hard.

I think many of us feel that way, it is hard to accept something that the doctors still have not figured out or come up with a satisficatory explaination for.
However, there we sit plagued with this bizarre and nearly dibilitating affliction.
I completely understand your mind set, it has been 7 frustrating years since my diagnosis.

I have dealt with it for 24 years I know of, and im 54 now. I am still trying to learn my limits, and it is hard, because when I have a good day finally, i overdue, then I hurt myself for a week, Im not able to feel like doing anything. I have lost friends, marriage, family members that don't understand, but I thank God daily for what I do have. Find your blessings, there is always something, go to a fibro support group. Im starting one here where I am for the simple fact to learn more myself, as I still am learning about this disease, and to Educate others. Finding a good support group and a good doctor that understands it, and believes in it helps alot. Im so thankful I have a place like this to come to, it helps to talk with Other fibromites that understand. Feel free to pm me, praying for you. I also have chronic fatigue with mine and a few other things, so coping is a daily chore. Not planning is a big thing too, as I never know what I am going to feel like. It sucks, but its doable. Praying for you...

I have never accepted that FM was the cause of my illness and I kept looking for cause. I'm glad I did because now I know why I'm sick and can do something about it.