I've said here that Koshka is still really up and down and doesn't seem to be doing great..I brought her in today to get bloodwork because I needed to see numbers and whether they matched how she's doing. Her bloodwork is basically perfect but my boss noticed that she's subtly neurologic in the cage (a little twitchy and slow to follow something with her vision). Her BP was normal but walking around she kind of hugged the edges of the room and if she had to go around something, she stopped and sniffed first...so her vision is not normal. She also stumbled in both her front and hind end, indicating something wrong in the brain (as opposed to the spinal cord). She's able to navigate fine at home but she knows where everything is, and really my place is so small that there's not a lot of open space...she's also been less active lately. She's been more reactive towards the other cats if they get near her for a couple months, which makes sense if her vision isn't good. Unfortunately, another thing he mentioned is that a pituitary tumor is one of the ones that tends to be slow growing...I asked if that could have caused the RTA over the past several years and the answer was yes. So my cat probably has a brain tumor...only way to definitively know is to do a CT, which I can't really afford, and I definitely don't have the money for brain surgery...so I don't think I'd go through with a CT just for an answer. If its a tumor she's basically going to get progressively worse at some point-we're putting her on steroids in the hopes that she improves for any amount of time. I'll watch her more closely at home for neuro signs and hope we get some good time. My childhood cat most likely had lymphoma that went to his brain in the end, so unfortunately it's not the first time I've dealt with this...I just know more what's going on 12 years later and what to look for. But damn. This fucking sucks. And I still have 6 hours that I need to hold myself together...