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the anger:
i took a 13 week anger management class in 07.... it helped me out a ton, for the time being.
but now....
starting about 2 months ago when i realized the cymbalta was a failing me and then had to get off it, i felt the anger coming back. have withdrawals for 1.5 months now and i haven't gotten any calmer, still pretty angry. and then the recent rheumatology appt that went bad (that he couldn't help me anymore) made me even angrier. not to mention that i have to file a court claim against my ex land lady FOR THE 4TH TIME!!! grrrrrr
yesterday, i went to pain psychology (every monday)...
guess what the topic was? ACCEPTING YOUR SELF AND ACCEPTING THE PAIN.
i told them that i'm so tired of feeling this pain!!! i can't be on my feet anymore than 10 mins at a time or the pain (in my feet) gets so horrid i wanna scream!!! i can't even bare another pound of weight on my feet when it gets like that! 10 mins, that's all i got to work with for the day. that's not a lot of time!!
and then i brought up about all the anger.
i don't know about you, but lately i WAKE UP ANGRY. and it's like i have tons of "trip wires" waiting for some one to trigger the explosions. all it takes is the smallest thing or word.
someone tell me how the hell i'm supposed to ACCEPT myself this way? and who else struggles with this?
i took a 13 week anger management class in 07.... it helped me out a ton, for the time being.
but now....
starting about 2 months ago when i realized the cymbalta was a failing me and then had to get off it, i felt the anger coming back. have withdrawals for 1.5 months now and i haven't gotten any calmer, still pretty angry. and then the recent rheumatology appt that went bad (that he couldn't help me anymore) made me even angrier. not to mention that i have to file a court claim against my ex land lady FOR THE 4TH TIME!!! grrrrrr
yesterday, i went to pain psychology (every monday)...
guess what the topic was? ACCEPTING YOUR SELF AND ACCEPTING THE PAIN.
i told them that i'm so tired of feeling this pain!!! i can't be on my feet anymore than 10 mins at a time or the pain (in my feet) gets so horrid i wanna scream!!! i can't even bare another pound of weight on my feet when it gets like that! 10 mins, that's all i got to work with for the day. that's not a lot of time!!
and then i brought up about all the anger.
i don't know about you, but lately i WAKE UP ANGRY. and it's like i have tons of "trip wires" waiting for some one to trigger the explosions. all it takes is the smallest thing or word.
someone tell me how the hell i'm supposed to ACCEPT myself this way? and who else struggles with this?
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
I tossed a nick nack across the room yesterday.. just for trying to change my bedding.. uhg... plus Im def in menopause.. no cycle for almost a yr now.. lots of crap from that too..
I do think what dakota wrote.. but I know even tho I have faith in my life... I fall short.. and just get so angry.... our lives have been stolen... so.. what emotion comes out.... anger... we have no choice but to accept this... and boy it isn't easy... my feet are bad as well.. my legs are driving me nuts.. and they just started to ache like a month ago... and its constant now.... heaven only knows if its the fibro or diabetes.. uhg..
think also having a stubborn personality doesn't help much.. which is me... My housework has been limited.. and when I see alot of dirt.. boy shit hits the fan... then I over do. and hurt more for days...
ahh. yes... anger... can sit here and type a whole 10 pages on it.. all I can say is ... I can relate.. big hugs hun.. :)
I am considering taking anger management because I am angry with the pharmacy that messed up my Cymbalta dosage and overdosed me..
the thousands spent on medical care and end up nowhere..
my employer and the insurer who has been putting me thru hoops for the last 6 months to file my disability claim..
with myself for not being able to do so much and not being positive enough to keep those around me uplifted..
I AM angry.. i thought i was over it.. i wrote a beautiful journal on the 5 stages of grief and how I thought i was at acceptance..
*@&#(@& one thing is for sure.. this illness messes me up and no 2 days fall into a similiar pattern.
hope calmin deep breaths help me calm down..
any one that tells me to "accept" the pain can kiss my A**. they obviously dont live with pain. WHile we do have to accept our limitations, and we do have to accept that we may never get to accomplish the things we would like, and while we may never be pain free.... accepting that we must LIVE in a complete state of extream pain for the rest of our lives is crap. NO ONE should have to accept the pain IM in today.... NO ONE not even the people I hate.....
i'm still gonna find SOMEthing to treat this crap so i feel less pain! i got the neurolgist appt sooner or later. i gotta call em and make one.
and i got a follow up with my PCM coming up, gonna find out whatever happened to my supposed podiatrist appt.