Leo, just awful that your godson has Covid. And with asthma. People really don’t get what needs to be done to protect others. I don’t think my grandma’s family had a telephone out on the farm at the time of the 1918 Spanish Flu. She lost her one brother to that pandemic. I believe he was in his early teens. No funeral. Just his dad burying him on the farm. No one went anywhere back then. They understood. I sure hope this is soon over for us. I think this has affected us emotionally, more than we know.

I’ve been feeling a bit hopeless of my situation since yesterday. Not depressed, just hopeless of ever being better. Hubby tries to help me feel more positive. But he’s not the one in the wheelchair going through the pain and doctors who seem to be totally clueless. Today is the neurologist for my thigh. I am certain he will find nothing. But I’m going through the motions. I will go through all of my appointments for February. Then I have decided to give up. Hubby doesn’t know that yet. But I am so done, you can’t imagine. I just can’t get my hopes up for each appointment only to have them dashed. I just don’t think that is good for me anymore.

Nothing else going on as usual.

Morning Leo. I hope your godson isn’t too sick. Where did the whole, no quarantine if you don’t have symptoms thing come from? That’s ridiculous. I have been using my kn95 masks for 1 work week, which is 38 hours. I think in the cold weather they don’t feel used as quickly, but I know I’m pushing it. They’re hard to find and not cheap, so I’m trying to conserve them as much as I can safely. I won’t go over 40 though.

I’m so not ready for the week. I’ve been going to bed early but I still feel insanely tired from whatever plague I had a few weeks ago. My back hurts like crazy from snow blowing. Storm wasn’t horrible where I live, we got about a foot and didn’t lose power. It was worse farther east. The next few days are going to be bitterly cold, again. I’m so sick of it. And bf reminded me last night that his cousin is getting married in march, so we need to figure out finances/plans…things are tight for both of us and it’s in FL so we’re not entirely sure about going. I know he wants to because he’s close with that cousin, and I haven’t met anyone on his dad’s side of the family so I’m gonna go if he does, even though financially it’s not a good idea. I also need to call and schedule my OB-GYN appointment and that’s triggering but since my periods are still out of whack I guess I don’t have a choice…

Leo hope and pray your GodSon doenst get too sick!

These withdraws are awful anxiety wise and today have a migraine on top of it all. I did call and let my shrink know whats going on.. . Achy with fibro today but not at its worst at least. Very cold out here. God my hair cut finally after 2 years yesterday and posted a picture on my journal.

Hola
Coming in to give a hug & say hi. I’m having a hard time, my body hurts & everything’s locked up. I am having trouble with flashbacks as well. Tomorrow I have an appointment with my trauma therapist but I’m scared, I don’t know why because she is very nice, I just ....I don’t know.

I really hope everyone here can have a spot of comfort in their day

Big hugs <3

Morning Leo - I lost a few relatives to the 1918 pandemic according to my genealogy project. Some people feel so put upon by the restrictions that they have had to endure. Imagine not having a phone, computer, TV or even a radio and being quarantined. Honestly, people have lost all perspective when it comes to daily life. And, being vaccinated and wearing a mask is not that difficult I hope that your godson will be OK. My oldest niece has stage 4 asthma. She just got her booster on Friday. She has sick from it all weekend but better that than COVID without it.

I'm just OK today. We have a snow storm coming in starting on Wednesday and going into Thursday which could result in over a foot of snow. The forecast is still in flux. Thinking ahead to make sure that we have everything that we need. Other than that laundry, some cleaning and hopefully I will get my hair coloured today. M = meh for mood today.

Ida - I can fully understand why you feel that way. Your doctor bullspit meter is and has been full up for a while. But, you do have some new doctors and tests that may give them some concrete answers on what is happening and how to fix it. New information could be the icebreaker to get things moving so that 2022 is better. I'm concerned about you for sure. Please tell Hubby. I hope that the neuro is helpful. Hugs!

Hi Miki - It sounds like you dodged the bullet more or less on your storm. I'm going to redeploy the snow shovels today. I keep a larger ergonomic one on the deck. Going to move it to the garage for easy access. I'm sorry that your back is horrible from using the snow blower. It continues to be insanely cold here too. Yesterday, I needed to get the mail. I threw on a pair of leggings under my nightdress and wore my 3/4 length faux fur coat out to the mailbox lol. It is the warmest coat that I own and I never get to wear it. Going to Florida sounds nice. I'd like a trip around the block at this point. Hang in there.

AngelaJo - I hope that your migraine lets up as the day goes on. Your hair looks terrific!

LiLMissy - I think that the unknown when we have an appointment trips many of us up. I *try* not to overthink it. Hard to do but you've seen this doctor before and say that she is nice. Hold on to that if you can. Hugs and hope that you have a decent day somehow.

Shoutout to Milily, Zombie, PuppyMom, PainedOne, Twin, Autumn and Numie.

Leo, sending prayers for your godson. Do you mind sharing how old he is? Hoping it's the 'Covid light" version that lasts less days. In the last two days I learned that 3 relatives have it, and three friends/acquaintances have it.

PS Love that retro poster!

Hey, alol, thaknk you for the god wishes! (Dahlia! cat on lap there)

My godson is 9 years old. His brother is just old enough to get a vaccine but they "haven't got to it yet".

*headdesk*


No idea how sick he is, but.... We'll see. Praying hard.


Full of Hope ---- yeah, isn't it neat?
LilMissy: HUgs
Ida, listen to the BS-ometer
Angela, easy and slow, okay?
Miki, like Fan, I'd like a trip... anywhere. Across the road! Anywhere!.... but go with your gut.

Fan, big hugs.

And shout outs to everyone else! While I am so glad I Have books. Quarantine without anything else, fine, but no books? ACK

Hi guys. Found out some things. Not ready to talk about it all. I have a road to travel. My brain is better though. No, February is not long enough after all.

I spent a good portion of the day steam mopping floors and vacuuming. Honestly, you’d think that I never vacuum. It’s been two days and I could build a new cat from what the vacuum picked up. My back is officially unhappy.

Oh, and now our storm forecast is up to 14 inches. Rain first and then snow. Good times…

My shrink wants to see me again tomorrow . Ugh...... so many appts

Hi all! Writing this from a heating pad. Saw my doc this morning and my partially torn tendon is healing well. It will never be right. OK so it will have to get as right as it can. Ran the pups in the snow, ride 8.8 miles on my stationary bike (45 mins) did three loads of laundry, have put 4 away and have one more to do, made chili, chicken fajitas, and tuna for tuna melts so we have dinner through the week, and made homemade pizza for tonight. Still have to make my lunches for the week. But right now this heating pad feels too good.

Leo-- praying for godson This crap is never going away

Ida-- As they say, you can cry, puke, rest, and crawl but you can't quit.Let these docs try to help you. Mine told me today that when this flares I will be a hurting someone. But eventually it will be a couple days a month not 2-3 days a week. And I will know what to do to make it hurt less unty it stops. I think tools like that will help you.

Miki,-- Glad you made out OK in the storm. Aunt Flo has been screwed up since my first COVID vax. What a pain.

AJ -- your hair looks great! I pisy along comment on your other post and DS ate it!

Lilmissy-- sending chocolate your way. You can do it!

Fan ,-- sending you warmth. Today's 30 felt balmy!

Hope-- Praying for your family and friends.

OK must get up. I need that house to it from the Jetsons.

Puppymom, my cycle has been messed up since before any Covid vaccines, despite being on birth control pills. Yes I’ve brought it up and the gynecologist said it’s not medically concerning unless I bleed for over 10 days, and my useless pcp said it was stress. Personally I don’t accept either response, considering regulating my cycle was THE reason I went on the pill (I was having 2+ weeks of pms and my periods were anywhere from 3-7 weeks apart…my symptoms were horrible and I had them more often than not). But god forbid anyone gives enough fucks to actually *look* for a cause

Miki -- Oh I remember that you were having issues. Not implying that was your issue. Just commiserating that it's a pain when it's all messed up!

No worries, puppymom! I didn’t know if you knew or not so figured I’d clarify/vent. We can all agree those issues suck though, and so do doctors who dismiss you