Always weird to start talking about yourself in general, you kind of assume no one wants to listen. But that is why i am here. I am 20 years old, when i was a sophomore in high school I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and just this past weekend got the results back that I have chronic lyme disease. In between this time i was diagnosed with so many thing, beginning with the fibro then chronic abdominal migraines, IBS, massive depression disorder, cyclic vomiting syndrome, severe head migraines, chronic fatigue system and now I am just too lazy to write the rest out. I guess the two big ones are the fibro and the lyme. I am currently in search for a place to begin my antibiotic treatment. I feel like it is never ending, i guess lyme is the first thing that actually has treatment i can seek but from what i understand I have had it for quite a few years now. In high school i was practically bed ridden for sixth months and went through all the stages of depression that ended in a suicide attempt. I have decided to join this support group because i am tired of feeling alone when I know i am not. The story feels never ending, one diagnostic after another and feeling worse with each one. Sometimes I feel like I have morphed in to a living being i don't even recognize as human, just going through the motions. I was so active, i was the captain of the volleyball team for school and travel. Now, i cannot even think of myself as active yet i continue to lose weight because i have no appetite and the pain never goes away. When i toured colleges I didn't even think I would make it to college but i did. i have great parents who support me in every way, yet i can't find a way to be happy yet go to sleep at night. I want to do every thing i can to feel better, but why is it so hard?