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Last night after working all day, cleaning the house, fixing dinner, and waiting on the husband(life partner as we are not legally married) he comes in to shower and doesn't say a word. this is normal. He is usually tired. A shower and he is fine. But he came out of shower and threw a piece at me and said Shower drain broke and water is all out in the floor. At first i said I will find the money to fix it.
Then I started thinking. I work I make 150.00 to 80.00 a week. I pay all expenses for my girls I pay my insurance. When the stove messed up I Bought a new one. When the washer and dryer broke i bought a new one. When the toilet broke I fixed it. Literally I took it apart and fixed it. When the faucet in the kitchen broke I Bought the new one I fixed it. When the Car broke down I fixed it. When something goes out I always buy a new one. He wanted a new TV well Like a idiot I went and got a new one. My computer broke he got me this laptop and he told me on thrusday he was not going to make more payments to take it back.
WTF am i thinking I thought. I got the fuck up and went to the room got my clothes and told my girls to get a few also and I called my BOSS thank GOD for bosses like him. I asked him if he had empty rooms. I was crying so hard he said come on.
So up we came to the hotel and here we are this am. We haev done this before. Usually with a million phone calls from the hubby at night but not last night.
So this shows me I am not worth it to him. So I will now start the search for a place to live. And all of this after he help me unload all of my TAX REFUND. he was so loving and caring until it was all gone.
Did I mention that I go with him to every appointment that he has? As he has a few health problems I take him everywhere. WELL WHEN JULIE HAS A APPT. NO MATTER HOW SCARY SHE HAS TO GO IT ALONE. i mean noone will show their face for me. I have accompanied so many people taking time off of work and being there.
I am soooooo stupid. Neevr thinking of myself. I AM NOW!
Sorry so long. BUT NEEDED TO VENT!
Then I started thinking. I work I make 150.00 to 80.00 a week. I pay all expenses for my girls I pay my insurance. When the stove messed up I Bought a new one. When the washer and dryer broke i bought a new one. When the toilet broke I fixed it. Literally I took it apart and fixed it. When the faucet in the kitchen broke I Bought the new one I fixed it. When the Car broke down I fixed it. When something goes out I always buy a new one. He wanted a new TV well Like a idiot I went and got a new one. My computer broke he got me this laptop and he told me on thrusday he was not going to make more payments to take it back.
WTF am i thinking I thought. I got the fuck up and went to the room got my clothes and told my girls to get a few also and I called my BOSS thank GOD for bosses like him. I asked him if he had empty rooms. I was crying so hard he said come on.
So up we came to the hotel and here we are this am. We haev done this before. Usually with a million phone calls from the hubby at night but not last night.
So this shows me I am not worth it to him. So I will now start the search for a place to live. And all of this after he help me unload all of my TAX REFUND. he was so loving and caring until it was all gone.
Did I mention that I go with him to every appointment that he has? As he has a few health problems I take him everywhere. WELL WHEN JULIE HAS A APPT. NO MATTER HOW SCARY SHE HAS TO GO IT ALONE. i mean noone will show their face for me. I have accompanied so many people taking time off of work and being there.
I am soooooo stupid. Neevr thinking of myself. I AM NOW!
Sorry so long. BUT NEEDED TO VENT!
I am so sorry you are going through this. Everyone deserves respect and love, esp from a partner/spouse. Your husband should be pulling his weight around thre. I have a wonderful husband and thank God every day for him. Also, if your girls grow up thinking this is normal, they are likely to accept relationships with men the doing the same. I pray that you find a way to find peace for you and your girls....don't ever think you don't deserve it. And stress makes fibro worse too...you don' t need it for your health.
One thing right now that might help you with money...is the Census is hiring people at about $12 per hour....maybe you can get some temporary work to help you make ends me.
Hugs and Prayers that you find what you need,
Pam
I just learned this year to keep my money in my pockets and keep my hands out of my pockets. It took me until I was almost 50 to learn how to take care of me and not be so dang generous that I hurt myslef.
Us generous, getter-done women seem to attract the takers. We need support too and sometimes we need someone to hold us up. We get tired of always being the strong one. Take care of yourslef and your girls. I will be praying for you. I know you can do it. Stay strong.