Family Issues Support Group
Family issues is a huge range that go from minor conflict to major misbehaviour and even abuse on the part of individual members of the family occur. Whether you feel you are in a dysfunctional family or you're dealing with a very specific issue, this is the place to talk about it and find others who might be going through the same thing.
wtf is wrong with people? i do every god dam thing he wants and expects and he still has a fuckin problem with every fuckin thing!!! wtf is wrong with him? wtf is wrong with me? i fuckin hate him!!!!!
I am sure there are alot of emotions coming from your mom being in the hospital right now sweetie. I can say, if anyone, she is probably least responsible for her actions toward you. She probably isnt even aware of the things she does and from your journals I gather she may be in psychosis and hallucinating.
I dont quite know how to say this..........but You have to get out of the situation you are in with your father. I promise you it is only going to get worse. You do not deserve to be treated like this and beaten and abused. You deserve to be able to grow up like a 14 year old young man.
By protecting your father from others knowing, you enable him to hide his abuse and continue it. You have to talk to someone. I understand that the last time you talked to your councellor it resulted in your father breaking your jaw. Find someone else to tell. If you have to, go to the police or a family friend who may understand. Where are your grandparents? Can they help you? You have to make it clear to them that he has beaten you in the past when you have talked to someone. Your councellor should have handled the situation differently.
Your father needs help. But, your responsibility is to yourself right now. You do not have to live like this. YOu do not have to be treated like this. Life is suppose to be different for you, especially at this age.
Please get help before he hurts you again. Each time will get worse because he will become accustomed to doing it. It isnt anything YOU are doing. It wouldnt matter what you do, he will find a reason to hurt you to vent his own anger. He is sick. Protect yourself.
Obviously other people see in you the bright and wonderfully delightful person that you are. If a teacher says that they usually mean it. Dont allow your father to steal that from you. You deserve better. Please, talk to your councellor again or someone, tell them everything, including the fact that he will hurt you if they talk to him. They will put you in a safe place until things can be better.
I will be thinking of you. Hugs
You should not have to be living your life this way.....
This will have long term damages, you need to take care of yourself - especially since you don't have a family that is able to to that.