My spouse: 
1) Believes theyve been given a God given intellect over everyone else. 
2. Gives long lectures to people who arent as smart as themselves and pawns it off as mentoring. 
3. A master manipulator and table turner. 
4. Belives they are Gods gift to opposite sex and why wouldnt anyone want to be with them. 
5. Lures their victims, gets close, learns their emotional weaknesses and uses it to destroy them if they dont get the attention and recognition they think they deserve. (Doesnt matter if its spouse, children, etc.) 
6. Refuses to admit defeat and blames those close to themselves for that defeat. 

I have asked to go back to work, spouse makes me feel guilty for wanting to do so. I believe he is controling me or scared he might lose me and he just might, ive about had it. 

Im so desperate in fact that ive looked at ways to live homeless just to get away. 
Im contemplating taking the $300 i have, buying a one way bus ticket and leaving. He has everyone around him enamoured or snowed over. In fact, im almost certain people would think it was my fault and blame me. Im alone and not sure what to do.