Hello all, new to this group. I have a few problems with my family and I really dont have anyone that I can talk to about it. So I thought that I would try here.

I live with my mother and my 3 kids. We make it work by me and my kids in the front part of the house and shes in the back part of the house. She goes to work and i am stay at home mom, homeschool my oldest, have a special needs child that goes to school everyday and appts everyweek, and take care of my 2 year child too. I do all the cooking, cleaning, shopping, etc. We get along for the most part but i have been having this feeling that she dont want us here anymore. The way that she says  things to me about what i do makes me think that she doesnt want me or my children here anymore. She used to help with the meal plan for the month on what we will eat for the month, thats how we do our grocery shopping for the month after we plan out the meals. But here lately, she dont help with that, she dont offer to cook on the weekends like she used to do some times and she always has something to say about what I cook atleast once or twice a week. It drives me crazy bc she dont help but yet she always has something negative to say about what I make. Some times I have to make quick fast meals depending if i had to take my son to the doctor in the afternoon or if I just wasnt feeling like cooking a big meal. She also complains about things around the house. Like, this needs to be done, that needs to be done, this or that all the time. I understand she works during the week and i am home and i do alot of the cleaning around the house and get my oldest to help me when he is done with his school work. But on the weekends, she just stays in her bed and complains about what needs to be done but yet doesnt offer to help with it or say thank you when I do it right then and there. Sometimes it would be just nice to hear a thank you here and there to show that what I do around here is appreciated with all that I do do everyday.

There is my father. He is something else all on his own. lol. I love my dad and would do what i can for him when i can. But about 6 years ago, I loved to another state for a fresh start with me, my bf, and my two boys and my mom. We moved into my grandmothers house that was sitting empty after she passed away almost a year at the time. I am now 4 hours away from my dad and my younger sister. I make the trip up there at christmas with my kids, they come down in november for my oldest sons and mine birthdays, I some times go in march at spring break for my youngest two birthdays since they are 2 weeks apart and then my oldest goes in the summer for a few weeks. I was there just this past christmas for the weekend. I was sick this time when we went, didnt get any sleep bc of what i have to sleep on while i am there and that made my anxiety act up badly too. Well its coming up on the time that i am suppose to go back for th weekend next month. But I am having a problem with going this time. I am trying hard to get my menta health under control with my anxiety and ADHD and more. My dad knows what i am going through bc i talk to him almost everyday to every couple of days. I talked to him about seeing if him and my sister would come down here next month for the kids birthdays and i would pay for their gas to come. Its hard sometimes traveling with 3 kids of the ages of 12, 6, 2 and one being special needs with several problems. Its also expensive for me to go bc I have to rent a car to go bc my van needs some work done on it, which i will be doing soon with taxes. Know I know its a busy time of the year for my dad bc he works of small engines to earn money since he was laid off almost 10 years ago and its that time of the year that everyone wants their things working right for the new year. But he dont understand how hard it to travel with 3 kids, getting no sleep, all that i have to pack for me and the kids, etc. So that was why I thought that I would try to get them to come here for the birthdays. But as of the other day, it is a no go and i may have to go up there. But when I told my mom about it she told me that she has been thinking about the trip some. She said why go when you call me everytime telling me how tired you are bc you cant get any sleep, they go about their things like you are not there, make you feel like you are not apart of the family, etc. When i go i leave here friday and come back sunday. My dad is always at his gfs house on friday and sunday evenings. But you would think that since me and the kids are coming that he would stay home to spend time with the kids, but nope he goes over there and we just sit at the house watching tv just like we can do at home and they have their toys and in a house that is child proof for a 2 year old. So my mom was saying why go this time and just wait and go in the summer time bc i have to get my van fixed and i am looking at around $1000 dollars to get it fixed up right to last me for atleast another 2 years. i have to get the fuel pump, fuel filter, oil change, brakes checked and done if needed, maybe new tires, fluids checked, etc. It not something that i can get done cheap. I would get it fixed and drive it up there the 4 hours but i want to drive it around my town for a while before i take it on that long of a drive to make sure that there is nothing else wrong with it. But my dad and sister just dont understand how it is and they never make it easy on anyone but themselves. I mean I shouldnt have to pay for his gas but I offered so that maybe they would come down here but that wont happen. So I dont know if I should go next month or wait and go in the summer time when my son goes for a couple of weeks if he is able to go, depends on if he has to do summer school with the homeschool program. Got to think about it and may talk to my dad about it and see if they are ok with that. Just tired of feeling like the black sheep when i am up there visiting them bc they make me feel like i am not wanted there anymore, been that way since a little after i moved here. So I dont know what to do.

What are your thoughts about this? Thanks in advance.