Welcome DM.... I am so sorry that you're going through such a rough time right now

I would let her doctor know that she's talking daily about suicide as well as obsessing about her appearance

There is a condition called body dysmorphia disorder.... Hopefully they will keep her in the hospital long enough to make a difference

I was diagnosed about 30 years ago and we have a very treatable disorder... It can take some time to find the right treatment as it's individual however she can be stable moving forward

Even if her doctors can't say too much to you with regards to confidentiality?...I don't know if she's waved that I would be completely frank with the hospital staff as to what she's been saying and doing at home

This is how she will be helped and move ahead..... Big hug... I know that the beginning is hard... There is a lot of help.... a lot of 'tools' ... Please don't lose sight of that....... xo

BTW if she ever threatens suicide I would call for help.... I wouldn't sit with that daily at home... I'd call an emergency service

Hi DM and welcome! although I am sorry for the reasons you've found us...I have had bp1(psychosis) now for 37 years. I'm on a combination of lamictal and zoloft for the winter months.

For me, accepting the dx was a Long Road of starting and stopping meds...I was in 3 different hospitals, almost for 3 months. It take time to get back " feeling like you have control over your brain". Ya might want to ask about if she's taking meds "as directed". I was on welbutrin and it gave me the willies...had to come off.

If your daughter is talking about suicide, I agree with SCD. What I'd also do is tell her the next time you will call for emergency service as you become every upset. This way she "will know" the consequences of the words, they are not to mess around with.

Letting her dr's know what is happening can only help them guide her and make sure she is on the right meds. If she is willing, I'd ask her to get a release for you to speak with dr's "to reduce your stress", not so much get info. She might become defensive like you don't think she can take care of herself....your meddling in her treatment.

Depression is very natural state after manic/psychotic episode. Is your daughter in college or doing online classes? I ask this because the stress on her to get good grades at this time might be hard. As for her body, could be dysmorphia, or it could be 'negative attention' , same with suicide.

I wish you the best and hope you will continue to reach out. :)

thank you so much for responding - she was only in the hospital for 5 days this last time. Acute care so they released her as soon as they thought she was stable. Her psychiatrist and her therapist are aware of her suicidal ideation as well as the body dysmorphia - she was only on Latuda for several weeks after going off the lithium so there was no mood stabilizer. She started the Wellbutrin just under 2 weeks ago. We watch her take her meds so that we know she's taking them but it's unclear if she is going to tell her dr she wants to stop when she meets him on Tuesday. Both her doctors are great about talking to me and Em has let me sit in on a few sessions so I can hear what they recommend. She's not currently in school - she took the rest of this year to take care of herself, but she did just start a job working in a local bakery. Her dad and I feel like she needs something to get her out of bed so she's not laying there obsessing all day. She also signed up with a personal trainer to build physical strength and improve her running when she gets back to it. One of my questions is this: Friday was a pretty good day - she ran, she went to dynamic fitness and had lunch with a friend. All good things - but then crashed and yesterday was awful. Is that to be expected? Does having a good day tire her out and cause the next to be so difficult. I'm trying to figure out the patterns and when I should be optimistic or worried - does that make sense?