I told this to another lady on her post but decided to post it here to share,
It happened on december 21st right before christmas, also my sons birthday is on 24th christmas eve. they stormed our apartment just me and my husband and my oldest son was home. the youngest one was at work. the police practically shoved me back from the door came in not saying anything except we have a warrent on the way. I was scared to death. I thought what has happened whats going on? then finally one of them mentioned they had been to see my youngest son at his work place and spoke with him and he refused to hand over computer without a search warrent. so they had sent police to our home while others were getting warrent together. meanwhile we were outside our home in the cold, when i looked in the door one of them was looking under my couch cushions and my oldest son said HEY, THATS ILLEGAL WITH OUT A SEARCH WARRENT. he stopped. then he said you can come in and sit here until it arrives. we had supper on the stove cooking had to cut off stove and sat on couch for 4 hours waiting. still panicing about whats going on, yet i did hear mention of porn. then i realized it was CP. when they arrived they took and searched his bedroom which he stayed in when he was home, he paid us rent to live with us so we never messed in his room at all. well they came out with his camera, hard drive and laptop. they left. then my son finally called home to my other son, he was so upset and he had been hiding at a McDonalds near by he was contemplating killing himself. but my other son talked him into comeing home and persuaded him we still loved him no matter what. so he came home. the cops had told me it would take awhile before they could get the images and evidence off the computer so he would probably not be arrested until after christmas. but they arrested him the very next day at his work place and i never got to say goodbye. i found out when he called from the jail on Dec. 22nd 2011, he is still in jail to this day with no court date yet. it is a federal case because he shared a picture of a little girls in a sexual manner but with clothes on. the picture had been edited to close up of her private area with panties on. (this is unexcusable) yet I still love him. he had downloaded CP online and had a bunch of them on his laptop. but his shareing it with a undercover cop was what busted him. and to this day he says he is glad he got stopped before he got any worse than that. he had never touched any of the kids. my granddaughters and his girlfriends daughter was checked and examined and questioned to great measures and there was nothing of him doing anything, thank God! He says he would have never anyways. I believe him but i am his Mother. you would not believe the things we have faced since then. he still waiting on a court date. His attorney told him he needed to take the plea deal because he had so many on him he was facing according to them 50 yrs, so he accepted it for 10 yrs. right now he is still in a county jail, has not been outside but 1 time in almost 2 years now. as you know Jail is worse than Prison sorta, you only get a little visit and they have no other things to do. I try and put money in his account there so he can purchase oodles of noodles or some other things but the prices of that stuff is 5 times the normal cost. i also gave money he had to purchase his own socks thermals etc..... who pays for this? his family. My husband is disabled now he has cerebral palsy and since he has gotten older it got worse so he was out of work for almost 2 years before getting his disability started this all took place during all this with my son. I was only one working. I was devestated and I have come to feel like God used this to bring us all back to him. We all use to attend church and serve him and we had gradually fell away. since my son in Jail has told me he is saved he made sure of it , he already was when he was younger but he said when church preachers came through he talked with them and made sure he was deffinitely saved. and that he is thankful for this arrest. Of course he is sorry he hurt me and so many people and his own life. But he cannot change it now. He just has to accept his responsibility, which he has it seems. He seems to be at peace with this and he comforts me alot of the times when he calls me.He is ready to get on to prison so he can work on some education and maybe earn some money on a job if they let him. however i am not sure if he has realized how horrible this will be on him the rest of his life. now my husband and I have not good credit due to husbands being out of work so long. But we need to buy a home somewhere that he will be able to come home to legally. Yet i can't and i have no idea who would ever rent to us if they know he is a registered sex offender. so i feel your pain. but not a man i was married to it is my son. As a Mother you know you will never under NO circumstances turn your back on your son. yet everyone we know has. I cry every single day i never knew i had that much tears. I think of him on a cold hard slab with a thin mat and 2 sheets no pillow and sometimes it is cold in there. I cry, then i think of how that jail serves sandwiches every single night for supper. can you imagine? everynight for almost 2 years the same thing? thats why i help with money for ordering snacks. i also buy him books have mailed to him, only way he can get them, so money money money is all i do. i can't get him out he is federal and no bond. so we are at their mercy.meanwhile i cry and i read post on support groups of sex offenders familys and i try to work and keep my faith, but not long ago a deacons wife sent me a email telling me how glad she was that he was off the streets and i might support him but she sure never would. Un called for if you ask me.. Needless to say i have not been back to church there. I feel like everyone has turned us away, we are innocent we are just family yet we suffer too.so part of me is angry yet i am sad too for my son. for his future. for our future.I just felt like i would share my story with you as well. God bless you