Last week I lost custody of my children. I lost custody for my inability to choose between my children. I thought I did all the right things. When these incidents occured in 2019 I called the police. I brought my children down to the station to speak with special victims unit. My daughter had an exam. My son was placed under arrest. When he was released to me I took him to get an evaluation. He spent the next few months in psychiatric unit. He was seprated from my other children for over a year. I was told by specialist that they could be reunified. The court case was then dropped. So I thought to my self this nightmare is now over. Little did I know the nightmare had just begun. I was then hit with a custody case asking for sole physical and sole legal custody. I never thought in a million years that I would ever be going through this with someone I considered at one time to be my best friend. I also never thought that my son would sexually abuse his siblings. So when the courts said that my kids could never see there brother again and if they had any contact with him of anykind or I would be visiting my kids at the visitation center. I went from having my children 4 days a week to every other weekend an on the weeks I do not have them I could see them on thursdays after school till 8pm. I was crushed my whole world was ripped apart. I have been looking for support groups. I am now going to counseling twice a week. This nightmare seems to be never ending. I just want to be with my children. Not to mention I was not raised with any of my siblings so family and breaking generational curses is very important. What to do?