Oh, I exactly know why. Before he went to prison, he was closet confidant. If I was sad/tired/angry/frustrated/depressed, I'd go to him begging for attention and comfort. Now that he's in prison and has been engaged for a couple of months, his fiance doesn't want me hanging to him and he likely feels to overwhelmed to help me anymore.

And it's unfair. I'm better now. My meds are working and I have a boyfriend. HE is my emotional support now. I deserve another chance to simply be a good friend offering my support. I miss my friend so much.

Pardon the above typos, I'm rather run down.

On a happier front, boyfriend is coming to visit in November.

Praying God will break the wall between you and your best friend .and there will be open communication soon between you two .God can reach the dephs of his heart to want to reach out and care .,if its his wil l pray it wil come to pass.in Jesus name .

@pnkrngrwnnb, good news about your boyfriend. I think of it this way, to have self esteem, do esteemable things. (not saying you don't have a high self esteem, but this is a tough time for you).

Getting run down - that is part of a normal life WITHOUT these kind of issues. I agree with IvyDog, I dislike people bringing up my situation from 11 years ago, but it happens and all I can do is roll with it.

In my case, I also go to AA meetings, which keep me in contact with people that I can understand and connect. Besides church and a different support group that meets once a month, my life is kind of busy, but it is worth living. Unlike 11 years ago when I would have rather been dead (that's the way I felt back then - not suicidal, just not wanting to live). Going through this is hell enough.

I'll close this with a little Latin, which is the opening verse of Psalm 115: Non nobis Domine, non nobis, sed nomine tuo da gloriam. (which translates, "Not unto us O Lord, not unto us, but unto thy name be the glory".

Thank you all. I'm feeling better.

Just missing my friend every day.

Ad now his fiancée has unfriended me on Facebook. I'm really hurt. I'd hoped she ;et me be her friend once I could show her I'm better now. My meds control my mood, my boyfriend is amazing, I'm HAPPY.

Since I can't write my friend and his fiancee has cut me off, I have only his prison inmate listing (He's been losing weight) and that's about it. I have no idea how he's doing, what's happening with his case. Other people have advised me to let go and move on. But i can't, I care about him too much. I need to know how he is. I need to hear from him again. I need hi back in my life, somehow. I love my boyfriend and we wonderful plans, but I can't forgot the man who saved my life and pushed me to be better and cared about me and promised to always be there. Maybe I'm crazy, maybe I'm stupid, but I can't give up. I can't let go. I won't.

I think it's time for you to step back a bit, dear heart, and let your friend and his fiancee have some time to absorb everything that's happening. He has promised his life and his future to her right now and they have to find their way through this dismal and dangerous swamp. Please don't add any more sticks to an almost unbearable burden.

Wait for him to reach out to you. Pray for him and her and their respective famiies as they continue to navigate through these troubled waters. "Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

Let him reach out to you when he's ready. And be there when he comes looking for you, but be a whole person yourself, not dependent on him for your worth and your growth as a unique person.

very good advice october.

not everyone is meant to be a part of our lives forever. sometimes they are only there as an aid or a stepping stone to a better place. some are meant to teach us lessons to become a better person. to open our hearts to others and to love.

Yes. I suppose I must. For my sake and theirs and my boyfriend. He intends to propose soon.

It would just hurt so much less if my friend hadn't promised to always be my best friend.. He was the first person to ever make me such a promise.