Do you mind me asking what your "state" is?
Acquantances will probably forget you but friends and family will NEVER forget you or your exit.

i found my ex after he commited suicide and i will never forget, im broken inside and thats what u will do to ur friends and family

I sort of want to just leave this world cause i think it would be a lot better without me, but a lot of people that know me don't want me to do so and i still don't understand why shouldn't people support your goals cause im the kind of guy that says i will do something then i will until i succeed, I think that i am extremely expendable and i don't get it why people around me don't understand that.

First of all, YOU ARE NOT A DUMB IDIOT. So we have some self image problems here. Stand aside for a moment and think: all these people LIKE YOU and WANT your friendship; many people LOVE YOU. I don't know what your home life is (parents), if there's been abuse there from childhood, but my dear young friend, death is not the answer. First: most suicide attempts fail and many of these people end up on life support. My therapist told me about one of his patients who JUMPED out of an EIGHT STORY WINDOW and LIVED. Now he's half crippled, half his body is crushed. Here you are, a fine looking young man (Nicholas Cage look alike), healthy, with friends and *I HOPE* parents who love AND NEED you. There's an answer somewhere as to why you want to end this life. Why not work as hard to find this answer as you seem to be working to end your life??

YOU are no more expendable than any of us. And God doesn't think ANY are expendable. Anyone can fill my shoes and do what I do, and all of us can say the same (except maybe some big name neurosurgeon or rocket scientist lol). SO WHAT? That isn't what LIFE IS FOR. PLEASE, try to get to the reasons you feel you want to leave this life. If you need help doing this, get psychotherapy. IF you take your life, you WILL discover that it's not "over" (been there, seen it, death is not the end) and then what? I don't know if I believe in reincarnation, but I think if there IS then you'll just have to come back and start over! You have gifts, you have talents, you are unique, there is no one else like you anywhere in the entire population of our planet (over 6 BILLION people). Life has sorrows but it also has joys. Whatever made you feel this way about yourself, FIGHT IT. I think there's something waiting for you in the future, something wonderful. HAVE HOPE. Ask God what He thinks about all this, believe me you will get an answer. May He bless you and keep you safe.

I dont think you mean any of the words that you have said, i have no body and always will people only want to use me, but i will not be used anymore i will choose to leave my life if i want and let someone else take my job, and my family pretty much everything that i have, i just have given up on everything and i already attempted to kill myself once and i blame myself for it not working, Not smart enough to kill myself thats why i chose this username, next time i know will work it has to i dont care if i go to hell im only afraid that it doesent have room for me and sends me back, anyways thanks for the responses i wish the best for you all

U have wrote that you can not live in the state anymore? I am taking it as you cannot live in the state of depression you are in? Well trust me, when you make the decision to hurt yourself, you are making all of your family and friends live in a state of pure grief over your poor decision. My niece committed suicide three years ago. Her children will always be in the mind set of why did my mom have to leave? what did we do wrong? state of mind of not having their mommy because she decided to end her life.

i have already found my answer to why i want to end this life and that is why i must go on through with it, Not many people will understand and i told everyone i mattered to already that this is what must be done to help themselves, the world is going in a bad direction and i don't think it needs people like me anymore so i will just do it a favor and let it move in that direction without me. thanks for the responses though.

I just lost my son who looks about your age and in fact has similar facial features. He made many attempts and although he promised not to he worked out a way that was fool proof. His note said (in part) "Honestly this isn't anyone's fault, I've been depressed for a long time...." His girlfriend had just left him, he couldn't get a job and he thought he was doing poorly at college. I know he planned it so I (his mom) wouldn't find him...but I did. This happened last year. I still see him there, blue and dead. I cannot ever go to sleep without seeing him and wondering what I could have done or said to have let him know how much he was loved. He had been on the outs with his brother and dad. When all learned of his death we all had our hearts riopped out of our chests. His girlfriend came back, his brother wishes he didn't argue the week before and I wish I had better undertstood the hidden meaning in his last text to me.
YOUR question of how can you make them not hurt for long. I will tell you that you will be condeming all to the rest of their lives in misery and guilt and the inability to ever experience joy again because you didn't know how much they love you. If I didn't have other children and a husband I would take my life, but I now know how unintentionally cruel this is.
Please get yourself some help. You need a good therapist and medication to get you through this time. It doesn't matter what you have done or feel you should have done. There is always a chance to feel better if you stay alive. Your nickname indicates you feel you have screwed up your life. You can always fix what is wrong if you give it time. If you need rehab...get it, if you need to talk to some one get a therapist who is good. If you dont like them get another one. Maybe talk to a pastor or priest even if you are not religious, you never know what they might say to make you feel hopeful.
No amount of time will heal the wound in your family's heart if you take your own life. Believe me. The pain does nto go away, in fact sometimes I think it just grows deeper. Try to give yourself another chance...maybe you just need to move somewhere...think about what it is that is wrong in your life and problem solve it, don't throw yourself away. Last thought is that I have never met a rotten person who was suicidal, only people who have depth of feeling.

Let me tell you something: if you do indeed take yourself out, the people who do love and care about you will never be the same. My brother's suicide sent me to the hospital with a psychotic breakdown. Don't you, for one moment' think that they will forget about you. I still hurt after 20 years.

May I ask you a few questions?
Have the other peoples comments made you realise that the harm you do to your family is terrible and permanent? Has that come through? How do you feel about that?
Does the idea of seeing a doctor make you uncomfortable or scared? If not, what is stopping you seeing one? Even if you think it cant help what do you have to lose by going? Use it as a chance to vent.
Are you aware that what you feel might be a chemical imbalance? If someone was aneamic they wouldn't think it was odd to see the doc and they would take the iron tablets the doc gives them.. Yes or no?
In this case it might be seratonin or another chemical that is depleted. Something as simple as that can casue all the feelings you describe. Hard to believe isn't it?
If it isnt chemical and the doc cant make any other useful suggestions then at least you have been thorough.
What do you think?

well i have no time for a doctor, and me damaging my family and everyone that cares about me for good is only a small price to pay, i belive that when i do die i will be happy because i will not have to think about all the problems i have, so i think everyone that wants me around to make themselves feel better is more selfish then i am right now. So should i deny myself happines for others to be happy, i have all these years and i am done with it, i really am, i used to hope things would get better but they somehow seemed to only make me feel worse in time, and i am running out of time.

A "small price to pay"??? Do you have any idea what you're saying? They will pray the price FOR THE REST OF THEIR LIVES. You think death is "happiness"? Have you ever BEEN dead? No time for a doctor? You don't want help? Then why are you posting here? Do you want an audience? Life isn't a movie, when you're dead, you're dead. And what happens next is anyone's guess and then it's TOO LATE. If you ARE able to "think" when you die, you will grieve the pain you're causing, I guaranty it. I can't encourage you any further than I already have. Just know that THERE IS SOMETHING AFTER PHYSICAL DEATH, think carefully.

Hi again
thanks for trying to answer some of the questions I asked.
2 things though
#1. you said you dont have time for a doctor. That isnt true of anybody. Its the sort of thing we say when we dont want to go. What is the real reason?
#2, You didnt answer the other question. What have you got to lose by seeing the doctor?
Are you worried about what the doc might tell you to do? Dont forget , if you dont like what he/she says you dont have to do it. Absolutely nothing to lose.
Will you go?

i dont want to see a doctor, well i dont want him to say that i am crazy, maybe i am, but like i said, i dont need help, this is how i have always felt, that is why people liked me so much, they can compare their lives with my misserable one. I know i will hurt others, dont say that i dont know this but, i already made it clear with everyone that i wlill be doing this eventualy, and i am not looking for an audiance, i asked a question, and yet i keep getting more questions thrown at me, and i wont grieve if there is a afterlife of any sort, why well i have grieved enough, and i dont need to anymore, i dont care about this life anymore, i live and i die, its simple, there is no reason to live like i am living right now, and i will not change who i am to live a life that is not mine, because it will not make me happy, so in conclusion i will not see any doctors and other crap like that, well i dont need them, I dont understand why people keep trying to change my mind about this, it isnt so bad if you actualy knew me you would want to help me end my life, trust me on this.

NO ONE WOULD HELP YOU END YOUR LIFE. There isn't ONE PERSON in any of these HUNDREDS OF FORUMS that would agree with your point of view. People don't "like you" because you plan to kill yourself or because your life is miserable! People LIKE YOU because you're LIKABLE. You have no time for a doctor, you won't seek out medical help, you're obviously suffering from a mental illness THAT CAN BE TREATED but you're not interested in being treated; SO WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? You think it's a "small price" to damage your family and friends? You think the the agony of your mother FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE is a "small price"? What kind of problems do you have that justify this fatal injury to your mother's emotional and psychological health for the rest of her life? Money? Job related? Girlfriend? THESE THINGS MEAN NOTHING. You have an illness and I know this because I BECAME MENTALLY ILL while trying to keep my daughter alive and DID NOT REALIZE IT. The only reason I know now is because her Dad told me he expected ME to end up in the psych ward (let's not go into why he didn't drive here to take charge of this situation). I actually was planning to end both our lives in a humane way! THAT'S how SICK I WAS and I had NO awareness of it, I felt totally NORMAL. I knew I was stressed to the max, I knew I wasn't sleeping, I knew I was having nightmares when I did sleep, I knew I had trouble even leaving the house, I knew I was LOSING MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER no matter what I did and I couldn't stop it, I knew she was suffering something she couldn't TELL ME but I HAD NO IDEA I WAS MENTALLY ILL. I thought my plan made PERFECT SENSE. YOU THINK YOUR plan makes PERFECT SENSE. It DOES NOT.