Wow you really have been through a lot. My heart goes out to you.

I agree that some medical conditions that put people at risk for suicide are genetic. And well parenting isn't easy, especially if you weren't parented well yourself. The same mental conditions that make it difficult to be a parent, can make a child more difficult to raise. And then at risk kids are more likely to suffer abuse. It kind of all slams the same people in ways that can't be seen and don't get much sympathy.

Hugs

I feel your pain and questioning. My great grandfather suicided before I was born; my uncle suicided, my aunt suicided and her daughter overdosed at age 28 (four years ago). All diagnosed with BiPolar with the exception of my great grandfather and uncle; diagnosis was not prevalent back then. All these family members were on my dad's side of the family. My did attempted often, he too has BiPolar disorder, as am I. In my family, drug addiction is also a problem with those that have suicided but addiction follows BiPolar. BiPolar and Schizophrenia are the two highest threats of suicide. Especially unmedicated and if there is self-medication (addiction) involved.

I struggle daily with BiPolar and get very weary of the highs and lows. I too have attempted twice. Once during a very low depression (first depressive episode at 28) and then again during psychosis. I don't know what keeps me going except that I don't self-medicate so my mind stays as clear as possible. BiPolar is a tiresome disease that we have to be conscious of all the time to predict triggers, etc. Alcohol and drugs exacerbate it and limit the quality of medications.

I'm sorry you've been through so much in your family too. Please know it was nothing about you. I can honestly say, sometimes living for some people is just too hard. Peace.

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Wow I think at times that I've had it hard.. my dad struggled with bipolar most of his life, which he would never admit to, and ended up successfully committing suicide the beginning of Feb. I too suffer from bipolar disorder, and my grandparents also suffer from depression and possibly bipolar also. I do know how you feel, I'm 19 now and have struggled with it since 13. I'm an addict also, well attempting to recover. I started drugs at a young age. Alot of times I also don't know what keeps me going, and to be honest, I'm afraid that down the road, I may end up committing suicide myself. The only difference between my dad and I was that I could admit that I was bipolar and know I am. And he had the major depression bipolar, which I had the manic depressive, which major depression is harder to see and recognize, and he had his pride. I dp think genetics have a role in it, being bipolar is a job. People do not understand it unless they have gone through it. I feel the pain of anyone I come into contact with whom is bipolar, because it makes day to day life so difficult at times.I am so so sorry to hear of this. One thing I do now is pray and try strengthening my relationship with god. The night he did it I got an overqhelming feeling of peace. At least I know I guess that he is at peace now from fighting a long, hard battle with suicide and depression. Just please never do it yourself, things always get better in time. I will be praying for you. Stay strong=)! I know its hard at times

About Bipolar.

I have a friend who's had it for, well probably her whole life, but diagnosed, treated and controlled for 25 years now. It is possible to get a drug treatment that works, and then have minimal problems afterwards.

And then I've heard stories of endless struggle.

In any case, there are many ways to reach out to others and not feel so alone and isolated. I hope you're able to do that. And I hope you're able to get stable on meds.

Hugs.

Wish I was bipolar, this mostly down crap sucks.

Many members in my family have attempted suicide but the only one who went through it was my brother. My uncles and my father have attempted, my grandmother tried to kill herself a week before my brother did, and my other brother tried to overdose after our brother died.

My uncles, father, and grandmother were all victim to child abuse and I know they have struggled with that everyday of their lives. They have attempted several times but they have not succeeded. My brother, who was 19, hung himself a year ago. I was completely devastated as was my other brother. I still am to this day. A few months after he passed, my other brother called me and told me he wanted to be with my brother and he had taken a handful of pills.

No one in my family is bi-polar but clinical depression runs heavily in my family. I am seemingly the only person who avoided all the genetic traits of alcoholism, drug addiction, depression and suicidal thoughts which is unfortunately something everyone suffered from besides my grandmother. But I will say it's awful to watch and see how everyone hurts. My baby brother was always seemingly light hearted and positive like myself. His first attempt he tried to kill himself on my birthday. I was so confused and so hurt I couldn't understand or wrap my head around the idea. In late November of 2010 my grandmother tried to kill herself and I was so overwhelmed I was angry and upset. A week later, I got the most life changing devastating phone call of my life.

Even in my darkest hours and painful aching thoughts, I have never felt that life wasn't worth living for, and I wish I could understand how anyone could feel that way. I get sad and I get down but I wish there were times I could have comprehended what made my brother and the other members of my family lose hope.

Stay strong and my thoughts are with you. I am so sorry for the pain that you have experienced and I send good thoughts and good vibes your way.

Bipolar is so ugly and dangerous, you learned that yourself. I had a neighbor who had bipolar. She threatened two other neighbors with a shovel. Because we had just moved into the same building from another state, she had told my mom not to come and visit her anymore because she did not want to hurt her feelings, although my mom was only trying to be her friend.