This is the first support group I have joined, and I must say today I am in need to hear something positive, to hear some sort of Success Story. Unfortunately, I think the years of down playing the pain, and writing everything off to be "normal," has finally taken its toll and caught up to me.

For the last 12 months of the year, I have lived the last 9 months with a chronic yeast infection and urinary tract infection. Additionally, about one week out of the month, I go through the routine knife stabbing pains in my lower abdominal area and rectum during/after intercourse. My boyfriend and I have always had a wonderful sex life, we have a strong connection and lasting bond. Intercourse is an intimate expression of your love you share with your partner, however, I am now terrified to have sex. I go from sad, to down right angry. No one should be stripped away from a natural healthy act, one that plays a roll in a healthy relationship.

I have a scheduled Laparoscopic surgery next Tuesday, and I am holding on to the idea that this will give me the relief I need. This will rid the chronic UTI's, chronic yeast infections, and unbearable pain during sex. Not to mention, I am completely terrified I will be infertile and maybe not able to ever have children. I am only 26 years old, and having children is something I want apart of my life. I am having difficulty not letting this take over my entire emotional existence. There is always a physical constant reminder that the endo is there and present. I find myself isolating from friends and family and even my boyfriend through all of this. If anyone who has been through this has advice, or a recommendation, or support, I would love to hear.