~Everyday~

There is this pain inside me that feels like stabbing knives
I wish someone would believe me I have said a thousand times

There is something really wrong her, someone help me please
I am feeling so alone and trying to put my mind to ease

Been to several Doctors, it is always the same
What youre going through is normal, they would always claim

So I try to walk through life with my pain meds by my side
Trying to be as normal as possible, I must go along for the ride

Ten years later with so much pain and still no clue
Then I met a doctor that gave me my break through

She knew something was wrong because I couldnt conceive
She performed a laparoscopic surgery and found something I couldnt believe

For the past 10 years I was not crazy, it was not all in my head
There was a disease inside me and ten years, it had to spread

I wondered what it was that so many doctors had dismissed
A disease I called the devil, was also called Endometriosis

This disease has tried to destroy my life and its not over yet
Because its about to pose its biggest threat

There is no cure for this disease, so I just will have to cope
But it took something else from me that I never expected my hope

Hope to have a family with the man of my dreams
Little did I know that there were other plans made by my disease

I would find out that I could never conceive
I then felt the world collapse down on me

I will never know what its like to feel my baby kick inside
When I heard this news, well, inside I died

Because no doctor would believe me and it took so long
Because no one would listen and told me I was wrong

I now will never have a family because of their mistake
This is something I will have to live with, every day that I awake

Ashley Nicole