Endometriosis Support Group
Endometriosis is a common medical condition where the tissue lining the uterus is found outside of the uterus, typically affecting other organs in the pelvis. The condition can lead to serious health problems, primarily pain and infertility. A major symptom of endometriosis is pain, mostly in the lower abdomen, lower back, and pelvic area.
I am getting more and more depressed. Currently fighting a UTI that will not go away. And yes, its a UTI not IC as there is bacteria and such in my cultures. If it turns into IC, I will probably murder myself.
I cant take it anymore. I feel depressed, suicidal, like I let everyone down. I cant get out of bed, have no energy, have so much pain, no more sex because of the bleeding. I just don't know. I'm thinking of doing a lap with an ablation (I have been bleeding heavily for the past 6 weeks with no stop), coils, and birth control to get to the bottom of this. Does anyone have advice on that? I have my appointment with my doc Friday and I hope to shed some light.
But seriously, my last period was so heavy, it was worrisome. Clots the size of golf balls, the pain was like nothing else I've ever felt. I just cant take much more. I give up. I feel like endo has taken everything away from me. Soon, my boyfriend will probably leave because I cant control my mood. I just cant do this anymore. This is not a life.
I cant take it anymore. I feel depressed, suicidal, like I let everyone down. I cant get out of bed, have no energy, have so much pain, no more sex because of the bleeding. I just don't know. I'm thinking of doing a lap with an ablation (I have been bleeding heavily for the past 6 weeks with no stop), coils, and birth control to get to the bottom of this. Does anyone have advice on that? I have my appointment with my doc Friday and I hope to shed some light.
But seriously, my last period was so heavy, it was worrisome. Clots the size of golf balls, the pain was like nothing else I've ever felt. I just cant take much more. I give up. I feel like endo has taken everything away from me. Soon, my boyfriend will probably leave because I cant control my mood. I just cant do this anymore. This is not a life.
So yes, I guess that could happen but I would not say that is typical. I've had four laps...each one was different....each had different recovery experiences....but none were like what you say she experienced. I think there are definitely things you can do to be prepared and make your recovery better and faster. Once you have your appt tomorrow if you decide to go with surgery I'd be happy to write out a detailed list of things I did that helped me during recovery.
Sorry to hear about your situation & many of us just by going the IVF journey, face a lot of depressed feelings , however as one of our friends below said , think of yourself , which is so true !
We have been trying for 7 years , all my friends have babies, I have had an ovarian hyper stimulation syndrome , used to have a very stressful job , do my ovulation tests in the office toilet, while I was working, cry & go for a meeting! Did that for years until I stood up for myself & then started letting go of the feeling of not conceiving ! And all of this without my side of the family close by ( I am a foreigner living in Netherlands) , then one fine day , I said stop to myself , told my husband , sorry I can't do it anymore & if you still want to me go ahead , I'll do this only for you & not for us ! My sweet hubs then, didn't talk to me for a week & I cried non-stop for a week! But from then things are so much better, we have grown closer , started counting our blessings, receiving the love around.... Which was lost during the treatment!
So my dear , pls try to get out of this, no life is worth giving up! If possible, take some professional help & if your friends & family are not aware, start opening up! Slowly you'll see the depression, resentment , the feeling of self pity & self destruction will start fading away ,..... And they will be replaced by love, a healthy you :-) & who knows what the future holds :-) life doesn't end without a baby , but your life will end if you start going a downhill ! All the best , be strong & heal yourself !
Life is too precious to destroy it :-)
Xxx MiracleHappens