Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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ann54 02/27/2012

i am in a rather intensive therapy for my anorexia, not ip, an individual. i have made some progress, but ed is still banging on my mind. lately things have been so out of control in my life and trying to do what i know i need to do is becoming to much. i dont know what to do, i hate ed, yet i love ed. will it ever stop?

deleted_user 02/27/2012

i have that same thought all the time. i wanna be left alone to rot in my eating disorder. yet i want someone to save me from myself. i am so torn.

CeeCee4 02/27/2012

I think there come a time when we get fed up with ed and get motivated to kick it to the curb. Sounds like you are not willing to let goo of ed yet. Once you have the desire to fully get rid of ed it should get easier to stay on track...and its still hard

ImpulsiveREtardednes 02/28/2012

Why is recovery so hard?? Because if it was easy, it wouldn't be recovery. If it was simple and the ability to just stop was acquired...you'd never have had an addiction in the first place.

You hate to love it....but can't help but love to hate it. You have to hate it...but at the same time...because it's been so trying on you...it's nearly all your strength to fight it. But I believe that you will find a way. I believe that fully. :)

It's always hardest when things in your life are going nuts!!! But that doesn't mean that you can't try and find something else to focus your energy on instead. Just try to find something more relaxing. If that's possible. A bath, or a good book. I know you'll find something. f I believe in you. :) Take care of yourself my dear.

deleted_user 02/28/2012

Its almost like our ED has a personality... It fights for control like we do.
Or at least thats what it always felt like. The more I try to push the thoughts out, the louder they get.

ann54 02/28/2012

i hav to make it a prioty, everyday somehow. i have come farther then i ever thought i would 3 months ago. those darn thought and fears, the doctor told me to talk back to them. he said the overall picture is, do i want a better quality of life? yes, but that means kicking out ed totally. i am trying, need to try harder.

deleted_user 02/28/2012

I've felt the same way, well, I still do. We all have, at some point. I am torn between the pro-ed and the con-ed. Now really sure which one dominates the other.

Hang in there, hun. Remember "recovery happens, one meal at time"

ann54 02/29/2012

thats a great saying, ill repeat it every day

zopta3 02/29/2012

I am where you are at. I find it harder to fight anorexi anow that I am older. I have been over weight,binged,purged with lax and diuretics,spit/chew since a child and with adult stressors and responsibility it is horrible. I am still eating 3 small meals per day and very light snack and on weekends or busy days I find myself skipping a meal or two. all we can do is fight back even 4-5 strawberries added to a meal.

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