(((Ann)))
When your sick food will taste gross and your appetite will take a vacation. Don't get upset with yourself.....will the doctor let you switch to some simple soup or tea and toast until you are feeling better?
Remember, you have probably been living with your ed for a long time and the habits are a part of you....it will take time and patience and lots of hard work to push the bad habits away and welcome in healthier ones. (I'm having issues with that one!) :/
Now, take some cold meds, Vapor Rub up, and snuggle under a warm blanket so you can get some rest. ~*~

thanks, and your right, i know that when sick before you have no taste or desire for food, but i feel such pressure from the doctor to eat more calories, as i am now under my safe weigth. yesterday i felt better and was able to eat the full yogurt. i keep self sabatoging with walking my dog when im not supposed to exercise until i up the calories to what she wants. i hate ed and the control it has even working with a specialist for the past 5 weeks. i have made small steps, but why cant there be a magic pill? i feel so incredibly fat and lazy if i dont exercise somehow and that i will gain, so darn stupid.

Why is it we call ourselves stupid and weak when we suffer from eds? We are chained to a serious sickness, one that screws up our brains, bodies, and spirits :(

If you can't fight the urge to walk your dog, can you find the strength to keep the walks shorter than usual? Baby steps, right? :)

Are you feeling better and getting rid of the cold? Being sick (on top of being sick!) can't help with your mood, so feeling down and negative can be a natural response right now. Use this time to baby yourself....curl up with a good book or some movies, nibble on the yogurt or plain toast, and let your body rest so it can fight the cooties. Sending you some love and support ~*~

thanks, my cold is finally gone and i can taste the yogurt. i just screwed up again on walking, i walked my dog for almaost an hour.

Well, then you will do better tomorrow, right? When you are on your walks how do you feel? If you are unable to take your walks, do you panic?

i feel great when i walk my pup, such a stress reliver and good exercise for my dog. i am not going to my class, nia, because im not supposed to, but i have just substituted with something that likely causes more burned calories. yes, i dont like the feeling of doing nothing in the form of exercise, if i cant go out, cold for example, i will clean and clean on my day off, or simply go window shopping just to move. you know what really makes no sence? after a hard day at work, i have a physical job, i take a nap and im ok with that. who can figure?

Hi Ann, how are you feeling today?

thanks so much for asking. last week was definetly an up and down week, saw my ed dr. yesterday and had a rough but good sesion. i have been pretty good with the yogurt, except when i was sick and now he wants me to eat a snack also. at least he doesnt care how much as long as i do, he wants me to reawken my bodies natural hunger pains, which i either ignore or dont have. this is going to be hard, as i think of snacking as a huge no-no and the way to lead to overeating. i dreamt about ed and being even thinner and loving it, i hate this!

Your dream could be the sickness trying to keep a hold of you, especially now that you are eating a bit of food so your body can become stronger. Don't let "it" beat you....ignore those mean voices in your head and tell your body you are going to take just one bite of a snack today so that you can be healthy and alive. Maybe tomorrow you can tell your body you will now being taking 2 bites, and you will NOT get fat from it, but another step closer to a healthier, happier you.
Good luck today and give yourself some love and compassion ~*~

it was a high anxiety day for me. i decided on almonds as my snack, bought them before work. i had some yogurt, at first it was fine then i started feeling yuck. i told myself to stop it is only some yogurt. i did eat 3 almonds and wow the anxiety afterward. i was putting supplies away, in a closet and i stayed in there for a bit with my mind saying all sorts of things. i kept talking back to the voices, it didnt work to good, but i have never really talked back before. i screwed up again though, and walked my pup, put felt hunger and had my full lunch. why wont i listen to the dr. and not exercise, at least for not that long? i dont want ip so whats my problem

Hey there girlfriend.
Of course no one "wants" IP. But I felt like you do now. Getting older and afraid of being an emaciated middle aged woman with no solution. I didn't want to go IP, but I got desperate enough. It really changed my life. But only through desperation, and with an open mind, an open heart and a true willingness to change. Many of us with ED are terrified of change, even if it's for the better. Like "freedom, happiness, OH NO!!" and we run to the safety and comfort of our disease. It's the nature of our beast. What's wrong with you, is what's wrong with me. I just have more tools to deal with it, and you can have them too. But only when you're really truly sick and tired of being sick and tired. xoxoxo

You have to remember that it is a disease of the brain. So our thinking really isnt right and sometimes we cant help it, but it is at those times now that you are aware of what you are doing you need to seek out some support. Call a friend, write in a journal or whatever it takes not to walk the dog. I have had my ed 25 years almost dies a couple of times and if it was that easy to get rid of I wouldnt have it. I have really ruined my body but yet I still do it. But I am working on it and it sounds like you are to. What about seeing a therapist?It isnt about the food there is usually something else going on. Keep up the good work. You dont want to end up in the hospital or anything like that