this is very triggering! I can believe you posting this! i didnt even read it but i will not! just voicing my opinion.

Relax, relax. I can tell by your post you are awfully stressed about beginning your weight loss program, besides being sick! I suggest you start your program once your feeling better, but don't allow being under the weather to give yo and excuse to eat unhealthy. Once you feel better, start little by little. Perhaps do week by week and at 10 mins to your walk, don't go all in at 45 min if you aren't use to it. Then with the app try to use it at least once a day to begin with and from there it should become natural to you.
Remember that if you fall of track, be forgiving to yourself. After all, if you had a car with a flat tire, would you crash the car?

Thanks, that really helps.
Lara

Sorry to hear you're eating more without being sick. I'm glad you're here. Sure hope you can make that meeting on Wednesdays. If you can't then don't put anything on your calendar for next Wednesday.. Recovery is a committment, and it takes all the effort to get better, or a bunch more, than we put into out eating disorder.
Since you asked about suggestions, I like to think of recovery as a slow baby step progress. Like doing something you are 10% sure that you can do. I'll give you an example. I could not go in public in a swimsuit. So I had to do the 10% which was to put on the swisuit in my bedroom. Then I was 10% sure I could go in the backyard and get in the jacuzzi. Then I became 10% sure I could walk a little in my backyard. 100% is too much. So small goals are great then you dont feel like a failure.
You're here and thats huge! Now you can get support (except for those who flip out) but there's many more people here willing to support you. Keep coming back. So more is yet to be revealed. Peace.

Also tried to give the self described "former drama queen" a hug. Well here's a hug for you who is suffering. Please feel the love of the sisterhood of the ED group. Love and Tolerance is our code here, and I'm sorry you were so triggered. Hopefully you can have a goal not to open links. They were very hard for me too in the beginning and I understand the compulsion. Group hug for you Hotwheelz and I hope you find everything you deserve. Love compassion tolerance and recovery. xo

Hello Peanutzz, Sonamb,
Thanks for the support. Hope I did not write anything that was inappropriate. Thought it was OK to express ones struggles. Since I am on the mend the "Craving" for more food has subsided. Sometimes when you have the flu it kills your appetite, but this seemed to do the opposite. Anywho, walked ten minutes today, also went to a meeting (was a general support meeting). Will go to overeaters meeting Wednesday. Also was strong enough to go to the Farmers Market, buy healthy foods.
In my Overeaters Meetings there are no rules as to what you can talk about, just Binge-a-Logs are discouraged.
Thanks again for your insightful responses.
Lara

The problem lies with the eating disorders group not being split into sections, if you were wondering why someone thought your post as triggering. Combing overeating/binging problems with anorexia and bulimia problems is risky. I'll contact DS about it and maybe there can be sections, others should do the same if they have concerns.

combining, not combing*