I've checked myself in for an ED before myself but many many more times for depression. Here's how I look at it: if people who really care about you are telling you to go somewhere that horrible, that scary, they are concerned for your safety and well-being. If you are considering it chances are on some level you know you need to be there too you just don't want to deal with the lack of freedom and the fact that they are going to try to take your coping mechanism (the ED) away. You don't know me, I don't know you but from what little you told me above I really think you should go. I know that's most likely not what you wanted to hear and that hospitals and treatment is scary but think of it this way: It doesn't normally last very long, although often it feels like it does, and in the end you are stronger and better for having done it. Doesn't that sound better than wasting away and hurting yourself until you die a painful and slow death? Sorry, that's where you (and I if I were to go back into this big-time) are headed. I don't want you to die, I don't want you to hurt, and just because your weight is stable doesn't mean you are not in trouble. Seek out help, it's there. It's lousy when it comes to that but it truly takes the stronger person to ask for the help, take it, and use it than it does for them to continue to hurt themselves because they are afraid to ask. It sounds like people care for you and will be there for you and that's great.

In the end, it is up to you. I encourage you to seek help and to get better but neither I, nor anyone else, can make you.

Good luck *hugs*
Persephone

It's not just about the stable weight. If you are still swinging back and forth and purging, treatment is still probably needed.
If you have to ask yourself if treatment is needed again, I'm sure deep down,you know it is.
Take Care :)

I agree with JennaAngela.
Although your weight is stable, anorexia/bulimia is still hanging on with you if you are still having thoughts pertaining to an eating disorder.
People are telling you to go into treatment because they love you so much and are concerned for your well being.
You do what you think is right. Going through treatment can be extremely difficult, but people can definitely help you through it every step of the way. Just think- the treatment you receive will provide you with a lifetime worth of happiness and freedom away from ED.

Take gentle care hun! I'm here to talk! :)

xoxo Andrea

Sorry to be redundant, but I second the others... remember, weight does not matter. This is a psychological disorder with physical side effects- you know that :) And I think you know you need treatment, it seems like you even want it. I'm in the same boat- I WANT to get better, I know I need help, but it's so damn hard!

So ask yourself some questions- what's holding you back? What is really holding you back from going into treatment? What would happen if you didn't go into treatment? And... what is the worst that could happen if you did go in?

well really think about it... are you using ED as a coping mechanism...

my therapist said I am not in full recovery until I am behavior free for a full year...

good luck, you know what to do...