Eating Disorders Support Group
Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.
I've never actually binged ate and made myself sick before until about a week ago. I found that I liked the feeling of losing my stomach as it made me feel relieved...now I cant stop. I know its bad for me and I know that I shouldnt be doing it but I'm terrified to ask for help. I feel like I'm fat and the pressure is just too real to describe in words. Between work, school and my family at home and my depression, I cant seem to win. Now my friend found out and she's really scared. I didnt want to push that on anyone. How can I heal? I dont want to end up in the hospital but I dont feel good both mentally and pysichally. (Pardon my spelling.)
ED's are a coping mechanism we use so we don't have to feel. This usually happens in childhood when we have strong feelings and found it unsafe to express them around others. In this unsafe environment we learned to not show our feelings and then found ways to cope with it - in many cases this is done with food. As we get older the coping mechanism is used whenever we feel strong feelings which is why when we are stressed we tend to see an increase in our ED habits.
You can heal the ED and any traumatic events you have in your past. If you can tell someone what you are doing then please do. You do not want this to go unchecked for very long because it can do so much damage to your body. You can heal and you deserve to heal. If you really feel like you can't trust anyone right now then please keep coming here and talking to us. ((Hugs))