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Struggling tonight - TW

forestfreek
forestfreek

Hey all.   Hope everyone is having a good week:)


I'm finding that I'm really struggling with wanting to b/p tonight.   I've got a hugely busy day tomorrow and Saturday so I know if I give in to the temptation it will just make me feel shitty and lethargic for the next couple of days and also set off a few days of bad eating.   I've been doing fairly good with my eating but yesterday was a total freak-show mess.  I b/p 4 times which is odd for me.   Not sure what's going on but I'm really trying to white knuckle it right now.   Drinking tea and playing with my 4 year old but I feel like the second I put him to bed I'm not going to be able to hold off.  


K.   I really don't know what's going on because all of a sudden as I'm typing this I'm bawling my eyes out.   Maybe that's a good thing??   LOL (through the tears;)).


Sorry guys.   Just wanting to reach out because I feel like a mess right now.   Plus it's *that time of the month* so I'm feeling extra fat, weepy and bitchy.   *SIGH*

forestfreek
forestfreek
And Lucky you are so right - it does feel good being heard and supported. I think this group is fantastic:)
Now I need to DO something to change my situation instead of just sitting around feeling trapped. Onward to a productive day!!
PaleOxymoron
PaleOxymoron
Are you on any antianxiety or antidepressant medications? Maybe that would help with the crying and feeling fat, but I don't know. How do you usually handle around Thanksgiving? It's stressful to most people.
shortysena1
shortysena1
Im sorry that last night was so tough for you. I think that night time is harder then the day for most of us. Plus being that time of month messes with your hormones that already crappy. I'm lucky I don't have to deal with this anymore because of having a hysterectomy because of cancer. I do remember what it was like though. I hope that today is better then yesterday for you. I hate crying. Mostly because when you are younger everyone calls you dramatic when you do. Plus my feelings were never really validated when I was younger. When I do most of the time I feel better. Like you I usually have to listen to sad music or sad movies in order to do it.
forestfreek
forestfreek
PaleOxymoron - not on any meds. I've tried both anti-anxiety meds (got addicted to them) and antidepressants (did not help my ED symptoms, in fact made them worse. I also hated the way I felt on them). I'm Canadian so this has nothing to do with Thanksgiving - we had ours here a month ago. Holidays don't bother me. In fact I love them:)

Shortysena1 - you are right. Night time is a major struggle for me. Actually it starts around 3-4 pm and then ebbs and flows from there.
I'm sorry that you had to deal with cancer..........
Thanks for the support everyone xoxoxox