jasgall...
Hi...i'm sorry to hear of your struggles...i actually was going to just make a post of my own about this very thing...b/p is my norm as far as ed goes but when things start to become worse i lean toward the starvation mode more....which is what i have been doing for the last few days...

I'm sorry i don't really have any words to give you that might be helpful...i just want you to know you are not alone.

you are not alone!
maybe go to your doctor to get help before things get worse? maybe at least just for a chat to help you feel better?

Yea i agree with KMW about nipping it in the butt right away before things get worse. i know how you feel and i will pray for your strength during these hard times

thanks for the support. i went shopping yesterday and spent my christmas monwy. i met my best friend jenny, and i was honest with her about my behaviors. she has known me for 8 years. she knows absolutely everything about me and vise versa. she suggested i make an appointment wih my therapist and nurse practictioner. i already scheduled an appointment with my therapist for tomorrow.

i did better yesterday than i have lately. i ate lunch and dinner. jenny and i got seperated in barnes and noble. while i was looking for her, i accidently ran smack dab into the diet books. it triggered me really bad. i actually came home and went online to find a calorie counter. i ate SO MUCH yesterday. i feel so bad about it. i have been awake since noon, and i haven't eaten yet. i just want to feel good about my body.