I am terribly sorry you are going through that. I commend you for going through therapy and treatment though! That's huge! I keep finding excuses not to do it. You must be a very strong person to get help! Good for you!

your doing great hun!!!! youve made it this far...its really tough when you out in the real world, but you have to just remember everything the taught you in treatment...use your positive thinking and personal affirmations. lean on your family and friends and please continue to go to your day programme, let them know how much your struggleing....keep a journal as i think thats a great tool and keep coming here to get the support that you need.....dont be so hard on yourself hun, youve come so far....it really is great on the other side of this disorder, so keep fighting !!!!!

wondering if your on anti-depressants??? and for how long....could be something to talk to your doctor about, you could need an increase in your meds.....im here when you need to talk.....

Hon, it's not uncommon for people to feel as you do when they leave IP, dealing with life at a 'higher' weight is often the toughest time and depression can be really bad. But you are doing all of the righ thtings, and instead of telling yourself you will fail, tell yourself you will succeed, you've come so far already, keep up the fight against stupid ED!

It is pretty normal to feel the way you do after IP. All of a sudden the structure and force is gone and it's all up to you to be responsible. I encourage you to talk open to your therapist and maybe find a person who can hold you accountable for your mealplan. Good luck.

For the first three months after in patient treatment you are at the most vulnerable, your safety net has changed but you still have one, remember all that you learned, the meal plan is there for difficult times when decisions are really hard, remember in patient treatment is a mircocosim of life, you have to rebuild your life at home now, challenge yourself.
And remind yourself as I remember, you really wanted your IP, you fought hard to get the treatment, I REMEMBER IT WELL, tell them how much you are struggling, tell them you feel unable to cope at home, they may want you back for a short time to help with the psychological progress, you are not a failure THATS WHAT THEY ARE THERE FOR. email me anytime xxxx

Thanks everyone for your replies :)

In response to jann's post:
I was on a lot of medication. Fluoxetine, Mirtazapine and Lamotrigine (for the Bipolar Disorder) But as soon as I went into the unit they argued with the dx of Bipolar without having even read my notes and took me off all my medcation. I'm only on 20mg of Fluoxetine now. They didn't work at the time anyway but I thought a change would be on the cards, not removal of everything.

x-Bliss-x