Hi Ann, sorry to hear you're struggling again with eating breakfast. Your body needs energy to function well. Hope things settle down and you can again move forward with wellness choices. Take care x

Hi Ann54...first of all, you became a member on my birthday :))! (Just the day and month, not the year, haha!). Secondly, I know exactly how you feel when you know what you are thinking is illogical but yet you somehow believe it anyway. Its very frustrating. Maybe you have read already or at least heard of the book "my life without ED." I tried reading it a few years ago and I guess I just wasn't ready. but now I am rereading it and love it. I've actually come to an understanding that there is "ED" and there is me. And it sounds crazy, but these days, when I am faced with those "triggering times" I am able to reach out to my higher power for strength and I literally say out loud "F!#* U ED!!!!" when I hear "ED" tell me "don't eat that'" or "that will make you fat" or "you didn't burn enough calories today to eat that."
We who are here in this support group need to remind ourselves...we are not "an eating disorder"...we are wonderful people, each with a special uniqueness about us. We have the sensitivity and ability to share wonderful things with those around us. I, being someone who has suffered from bulimia for longer than I care to talk about, have finally found a love for myself. And I tell you...It is something so amazing and beautiful. And having been involved in this "disorder" for so long, I feel I can also say with quite confidence, that people who have eating disorders are particularly sensitive and caring about others...And this is a beautiful trait. A trait that is really you and NOT ED! So I say, hold on to the beauty THAT IS YOU (the empathy, the love, the understanding others, etc.) and tell ED...F@#*! YOU!!!!!!

thanks kp, you are so right as always and I have been a bit better with breakfast, though not yesterday and I put off my hunger till late enough for lunch. I will continue to remember how you have recovered and keep trying. nme, isn't that funny about the birthday? it is very stranbge to have 2 brain thoughts going at the same time and it is great to know someone else who has beaten ed and is healthy and loves herself. you say such kind beautiful words, thank you.i have read the book a few times actually and love it, I just am not there totally yet, much better then a few years ago though. everyone here and those I have met in the "real' world with some type of eating disorder have been very kind thoughtful and caring people, only wanting to help and of course on DS as well. thanks and hugssss

Haha! I kind of went off on a tangent last night with that posting..lol!..I had just got done eating my dinner and I think it helped me to put down in writing what I know I believe to be true, rather than sit there at let the ED thoughts try to seep in my mind.
Hope you have a blessed day Ann. My thoughts are with you :)

I'm sorry you're struggling too. I find that when I can force myself to eat a little something for breakfast it increases my appetite enough to get hungry throughout the day. I can definitely relate to the sense of accomplishment losing weight brings. It is so easy to let the ED trick you into believing you are doing well, especially when little else brings you comfort. I hope eating breakfast becomes easier for you and you begin to see weight loss for what it really is, unhealthy. Keep posting and sharing. You're definitely not alone in this struggle. Hugs!