Eating Disorders Support Group

Eating disorders are marked by an obsessive need to control the intake and/or purging of food. This community is dedicated to those struggling on the road to recovery. Join to discuss your experience with others and find support. Get advice, ask questions, and meet others who are going through similar struggles.

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Alliegator 04/21/2010

I am so fucking fat. I don't know how I could possibly have let this happen to me. Since November I have gained so much weight. My butt and hips like exploded. I don't fit in my clothes very well anymore. I think a lot of it had to do with starting birth control and eating too much during the holidays. How did I let this happen? I hate myself for getting so fat. I have such a hard time motivating myself to exercise. I am scared I will start having anorexic behaviors again. I hate seeing all of the skinny girls at the gym. All I can think about is how fat I am. I started trying to count calories and it started spiraling out of control. I have no idea how to lose weight in a healthy manner. Why can't it just go away?????????

BeccBecc 04/21/2010

Are you really fat or do you just think you're fat? Are you medically overweight? Of course if you've gained weight your small clothes won't fit. Don't focus on the size. I also hardly think you've "exploded". If you are indeed overweight medically then go to your doctor or dietitian and get on an appropriate meal plan.

Sorry you're feeling this way regardless if you're medically overweight or not. It's an awful feeling but try not to let it ruin or rule your life. (hugs)

deleted_user 04/21/2010

I'm having the same problem. my doctor said to relax a little. To eat healthfully. I'm struggling with the exercise part because I have some physical illness problems right now, but just make sure you're eating well, and eating regularly. Keep the exercise up, especially the strength training, to keep your metabolism going. Anorexia whacks natural metabloism, and apparently it isn't uncommon for people who recover to overgain in recovery and then relapse... or so my doctor tells me.

BeccBecc makes a good point... you don't fit in your "recovery weight" clothes, or you don't fit in your super skinny clothes? I threw away all my super skinny clothes. My mom made me, she said I didn't need the motivation to fit back in them again. She was right. If it's your skinny clothes that you're not fitting in, TOSS THEM!

Alliegator 04/21/2010

I haven't been anorexic is 5 years so they aren't my skinny clothes. I just still really struggle with the inside voice of anorexia. I wish I was still the size I was when I just started to recover. I have definitely gone up a lot since then.

deleted_user 04/21/2010

Me too love. it sounds like we're in the same boat. I came out of treatment four years ago. I can't shake the voice, though. I sat at a constant weight for a little while, and while it was a little heavier than I was originally happy with, I made peace with that being the weight that was natural for me. Then it crept up even higher and I can't make it stop now. I have no idea what to do. I'm kind of in a full blown panic...

deleted_user 04/21/2010

The birth control pill shouldn't make you gain weight. That is just a misconception a lot of people have . And since you still fit in your clothes even though it's not very well your weight gain can't be that huge. I think ed is trying to get you back into bad behaviors. Don't let him and go see a nutritionist to help you lose the extra weight.

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